My King (Noctis X Reader)

Chapter 16

I layed in bed letting guilt and self-loathing wash over me. Noctis had been asleep for several days now and it felt like the whole thing was my fault. The others tried to reassure me, but I felt horrible for not rescuing him on time.

A knock emanated from the door of my room, but I did not bother to call out or open it.

"Y/N? Are you awake?" I could tell right away it was Ignis at the door. "It's about Noct."

I almost had to resist the urge to barrel towards the door. I quickly shot up and opened the door for him. Ignis wore his usual indifferent facial expression.

"What is it? Is he ok?" I asked.

Ignis nodded, "He's finally awake. He wants to see you." All the air drained from my lungs in a mixture of relief and anxiety. Every part of me wanted to rush to his side, but after what happened that night I still felt too embarrassed to see him.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and nodded. Ignis moved aside and I walked very slowly and hesitantly towards Nocts room. I reached my hand out to open the door, but could barely bring myself to do it.

When I entered I couldn't bare to look at him. I stood in the entrance of the room awkwardly, barely even glancing at the figure laying in the bed.

I cleared my throat before speaking, "You finally woke up. How... are you feeling?"

"Not great, but I've been through worse." He said. I simply nodded and the room fell awkwardly silent, "I'd feel a lot better if you came closer."

This made my heart flutter sadly. I closed the door behind me and leaned against it before anyone can hear our conversation.

"You shouldn't say such things." I mustered, "It's... not appropriate."

"You sound like you've gone back to being professional." He said sadly.

I felt tears burning my eyes, but stopped them from actually falling. I took a deep breath before replying, "I feel I may have been out of line recently."

"You?" He asked in disbelief, "But I'm the one who..." he stopped knowing neither one of us wanted him to finish that sentence.

"I'm sorry, Y/N." He said sadly. I glued my eyes to my feet, giving myself something to focus on so I won't start crying, "I... I didn't realize it until recently, but... I really like you a lot, Y/N. But I..." my body began to shake. The tears were getting hard to hold back. "Even though my wedding might not be happening, I'm still very indebted to Luna. I never wanted to hurt you, but I also shouldn't have betrayed Luna like that."

I wanted to scream. Why kiss me then? Why invoke all these feelings in me that I could have ignored?

Before he could say another word, I quickly left, shutting the door loudly behind me and rushing outside the cabin.

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I sat behind the lighthouse and stared out at the see for hours. I wasn't sure what to do now. How would I be able to keep going with them after this? How would I be able to face Noct ever again?

But alternatively, what would I even be able to do without them? Insomnia is gone and I want to take down the people who caused all of this. But if that meant having to be alongside someone who hurt me, would I even be much use?

What will the other's say if they found out? They'll know something is up eventually. Will they be disgusted with me? Would they forbid me from going with them? My head raced with so many questions and I began filling with rage.

"H-Hey. You okay?" I turned to see Prompto poking his head out from the side of the lighthouse at me.

I sighed, "Yea. Just great."

I could hear his footsteps approach me as I continued looking out at the water. He sat next to me and let out an awkward sigh.

"I'm sorry, Prompto, but do you mind?"

"Oh, sorry," he said, "It's just we got worried when you rushed out of the cabin like that. We decided to leave you alone, but it's getting late. We worried you wouldn't be coming back."

I leaned back and crossed my arms, "How did you even find me?"

He chuckled, "It wasn't easy. I've been looking for a while." I didn't reply.

"Did... something happen? Between you and Noct?" I remained silent for a moment, unsure of how to answer, "You can tell me anything, Y/N. And I'll keep it between us. He doesn't have to know you told me."

Prompto was sweet, but I didn't want to tell him everything. "I don't think I can join you guys anymore. It would probably be better if I just stayed behind."

"What? Why?" Prompto said shocked.

I sighed, "It's... complicated. I just... don't think it would be appropriate if I went."

"But we can't do this without you! You're one of us now. You can't leave!"

"Well you can thank that good for nothing prince! If it weren't for him we wouldn't even be having this conversation!" I snapped. Prompto flinched slightly at my response, but I just stared at him coldly. I shot up from my seat in a huff and attempted to leave.

"Wait!" Prompto called out. I ignored him and continued walking towards the street. I called a cab and after waiting for almost an hour, received a ride to the nearest rest stop just before night fall.

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I awoke the next morning to a terrible ringing sound. I recognized the sound as my phone and began blindly reaching for it. I felt almost the entire nightstand before finally touching the familiar object. I squinted my eyes open to read the caller ID. It was Ignis.

I sighed before answer, "Hello...?" I said sleepily.

He grunted, "Finally! Where in the bloody hell are you?" He shouted.

I scoffed, "Do you really need to shout, Iggy?"

"When someone is acting like a spoiled child, yes I do! I've been texting and calling you since last night. We thought you had gotten hurt!"

"Well I'm fine. And you don't need to worry about me. I told Prompto that I don't plan on joing you any further. Send the other's my regards." I angrily hung up the call as Ignis began yelling again.

I threw my phone on my bedside table again and tried to go back to sleep. I wanted to sleep in for once since I had no where to be. However, the sound of my phone receiving text messages proved that that would not be happening.

In frustration I sat up and began scrolling through the several texts I had received since last night. I could sense Ignis' anger through the device.

Iggy: Where are you
Iggy: Answer me
Iggy: Damn it, Y/N answer me right now
Iggy: We don't have a deadline here. We'll search all over Lucis for you if we have to.

I started to feel guilty. I didn't think they'd be this upset about me leaving.

Another text came through. I almost threw my phone at the wall when I saw it:

Noct: Y/N please come back. I'm sorry for what I did. We need you

I rolled my eyes. As if sorry could make things better.

Noct: I'm begging you, Y/N. I'll do whatever it takes to make things right.

I sighed. Without replying to anyone I tossed my phone to the side and gathered some fresh clothes. Some time in the shower might help me collect my thoughts.