Heart to Heart

Chapter 14

Shailene's POV

It's been five days since we arrived in London. Even though this place has many to offer for tourists like me, I couldn't help but just being lazy the whole time.

Mostly due to Theo, the guy knows how to persuade his woman. And for sure, I'm bot complaining. We did go shopping for a bit the other day, I'm not the kind of person who enjoys shopping for hours. It's just not me.

Our relationship is still going strong, but who knows, it's still a bit early to conclude anything yet. We've declared our love so many times, and it always feels sincere for both parts. Even though we were just getting started on the whole boyfriend-girlfriend thing, I couldn't hep but feel like this has been going on for a life time.

The thought makes me smile. We were sitting on the couch watching top gear-Theo's favourite show-and also because of Jeremy and James that couldn't stop making us laugh. We're sitting beside each other on the couch with my legs on top of his. I don't remember being this happy and relaxed for a long time, before this trip was pure work. And I got Theo to thanked for.

I heard a phone rings somewhere, "Whose phone is that?"

"Yours, mine is being charged upstairs." Theo said without looking away from the show. What's with boys and cars?

I sighed and walked to the source of the sound. As I took it in my hand, I see the screen shows that it's from my brother, Tanner.

"Hello?"

"Shai..." Tanner called my name from the other line. He sounded worried and sad.

"What's up, Tanner?" I asked in curiousity. Usually, Tanner is always energetic, so the sound of his voice surprised me.

"It's mom..."

"What's with mom?"

"Shai..." He took a long deep breath, then continued, "She's in the hospital, car crashed..."

And from that I dropped my phone and my self to the floor. And couldn't help the tears from falling on my cheeks.

"Shai?"

Theo walked in with a concerned face. He crouched in my front and held my face in his warm hands.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

I didn't say anything. It's not because I don't want to, it's because I can't find my voice. I was speechless, and numbed. My mother, God, don't take her away from me. Not when I still need her.

"Babe? Tell me, your scaring me."

Theo looked towards my phone and grabbed it. Tanner is probably still on the line, because Theo starts talking on my phone. When he's done, he just pull me to his embrace and puts my head on his chest.

"I'm sorry, baby. I'll book a flight, okay? You and your mom are simillar, strong women. She'll make it."

I'm voiceless. I want to tell him, my mother is the one who made me stronger, happier, everything good in me is from her. If she's gone, I'm none of those. I can't do anything without her, because she's my everything.

I didn't remember Theo put me on the couch. I only stared at nothing. Because I feel nothing. Every single things that might happen flash through my brain, and how hard it is to make them go away at a situation like this. There's nothing that could distract me from all the negative thoughts.

I know I should be strong for her, for Tanner, for myself, because I'm sure that's what my mom would want me to be, a strong person. But I didn't have the strength to do that, not when the person-that gave me the world, supported me through things, made me a number one priority, loved me for who I am-I love, in a hospital, where anything could happen.

Am I ready to lost her? No. It's too soon. I want to return her love, gave her everything she wanted, but I haven't. God, help her please, let her live, I need her, I need her so much.

"Shai, let's go."

"Hm?" I looked up and saw Theo standing beside me, with my clothes in his hands.

"We're going back. I already booked a flight, everything is set up. Here, change your clothes, and then we leave, okay?"

I nodded in response, simply because I didn't know what to say.

"Theo, come here."

He stared at me for a second, then sit beside me on the couch. His hand in on my back, and the other is still grabbing my clothes.

"Thank you." That's the only thing that I could say to him. He's everything to me. I have no idea what I would do if I didn't have him. I'm so in love with this man, and I hope he knows that.

"Anytime," he kissed my forehead and smile. "Here, change, we'll leave after you're done."

I changed quickly into the clothes that Theo brought me, and made my way outside.

As I walked out, I thought about the days I spent here. This place is what made us stronger, happier. This place is home. I hope someday we'll be back here, with a more definite future.

Everyone is outside the house, looking at me with sad face. Jane immidiately pulled me to her embrace.

"Darling, my beautiful darling," she whispered at my ear. The sound of her voice gave me feelings of sadness. Simply because of her motherly figure that made me remember my mom's condition. "Honey, I want you to do one thing, and promise me you'll do this when you're there."

I'm too numb to think about what she'll say, but I nodded againts her.

"Be strong. Be brave." She said, soothing me with her motherly voice and the touch of her hand on my back. "You are a beautiful strong girl, do not forget that. You have Theo, okay? You're not alone. I'll pray for your mother and your family."

I glanced at Theo, and he's looking at us with a sad smile. I gave him a smile and sighed. "Thank you, Jane."

After saying goodbye to everyone else and also little Ted, we head off to the airport.

I don't understand how Theo got this plane tickets in a very short amount of time. But I know that I'm very lucky to have him, even in my lowest days.

Once we're seated in the airplane, he puts his arms around my shoulder. Squuezing my body, he whispered, "I love you, whatever happens."

And I smiled in relieve.