Heart to Heart

Chapter 11

Shailene POV

Theo is hugging Ruth, on the streets in front his parents house. In front of me! Ruth has her arms circled on Theo's neck and his on her waist. "Maybe not." I tell Kate.

They eventually pull away after hugging for who knows how many minutes. Then she kissed his cheek. Theo turns his head to our position, and his eyes are full of shock. He immidiately step away from Ruth.

This is too much. "Fuck this! Bye Kate." Kate is shocked, and so is everybody.

I gather all my energy inside, and walks to Theo's house. When I walk past him, he circles his hand on my wrist which makes me stop my tracks. I glance at him, I don't know what I'm seeing, all I know is that if I look at his eyes, I will burst myself into tears.

I take my hands from his, and start running to his house. I can hear him chasing me, "Shai wait! Babe."

Fuck?! Is her serious? He's still calling me babe?!

I run as fast as I can to his room and lock the door. I walk to the closet, and just drop myself. Why? Why is he trying to torture me? "SHAI! OPEN UP!!" He's banging the door, screaming. "SHAI! SHIT! BABE! LISTEN TO ME FIRST, PLEASE!"

I don't know what to do, what to say. How can he do this to me? I can feel my heart ache. Oh no! The thought of breaking up with him comes to mind. No relationship with him, not even friendship. I'll never get to talk to him again, or laugh with him, cause everything will be so awkward. No! What about the movie! SHIT!

I start opening my bag and put my clothes into the bag. I can still hear him banging the door. Then it stops. But I'm too occupied. I almost done putting all the clothes.

Suddenly, two strong arms take my hands away from the bag, and lift me away from it. "Shai listen to me!"

"No!" I manage to push him away, and try to finish packing.

"Shai, stop it! Listen to me! It's not what you think!"

I'm done putting all the clothes to the bag. When I try to zip up the bag, Theo takes the bag from me, and flip it over, so all my clothes drops to the floor in a messy way. Once all the clothes are out of the bag, he drops it to the floor, and walks to me. "Shai..."

Fuck! I don't want this. I told him everything, every little thing I'm scared of, then he walks in messing all my clothes. I step back from him, to create distance between us. "Don't touch me!"

"No, Shai, come here, please! Here me out."

"Fuck Theo! You know how fucked up this is?! I just told every fucking little shit I'm scared of to you. And I walked out to see you hugging your ex, who I remember cheated on you. And then you let her kissed you! " I sigh, my tears are still streaming. I want to hold on the tears, but I just can't. "I don't know what to say. I'm so hurt. So hurt, Theo. Can't you see?" His face is shocked.

"Baby,..."

"Don't fucking 'baby' me!" He step closer to me, but I step back.

"Shai, stop this." He's looking at me with rage and tension. I can't feel it. But I'm the one who is angry. Why would I care about him being angry?

He step towards me again, but before I can step back from him, he takes my hand, pulling me to him, and push me to the wall. He puts both of his hands on my shoulder, making it harder for me to runaway from him.

"Let me go, Theo!" I try to shimmy my way from his, but he's too strong. I have no choice but to be pressed up againts the wall.

"Damn it, Shai! LISTEN UP FOR A SECOND PLEASE!" He screams at me. I know he's frustrated, but so am I.