YANDERE Tamaki Amajiki x FemReader

Chapter 16: Loneliness is Taking Over

WARNING!!!

There is mention of self-harm and suicide in this chapter. If either of those are triggers to you please do not read this one!!

My messages are always open if anyone is going through tough times and needs to be heard or given advice.

~Your POV~

As I was laying in bed thinking to myself I got a text from Mirio. I wonder what he wants. We haven't talked in over a month. I thought as I picked up my phone and opened the message.

Mirio Togata

Mirio: Hey Y/n! It's been a while since we talked and I'm having a party this weekend. So if you wanna come and catch up a bit I would love it!!

Y/n: Hi Togata. I'll think about it. I don't really want to do anything anymore.

Mirio: I hope you come. If you need to talk about anything I'm here for you.

Read 2:12 am

~End of Chat~

I sighed as I put my phone on my nightstand and rolled to face the opposite wall. Maybe I should go. It has been a while and I need to leave the house at some point. I pondered on the thought of why Mirio was texting me all of a sudden to ask if I would come to a party. As I closed my eyes I was almost immediately overcome by sleep. I fell into a restless slumber but couldn't bring myself to wake up. That was until my alarm started blaring, I've never sat up so fast in my life. I was drenched in a cold sweat and felt like I was being watched.

As I slammed my hand on my alarm to shut it the hell up I pushed the thought from my head. I hadn't showered in days so I quickly showered and then got ready for homeschooling. Since all of the disappearances started happening more often, my grandparents took both me and my brother out of school. We still did our normal school work from UA, it was just from home now. Being at home didn't make me feel any safer though.

Every night I would have restless sleep or have nightmares that I couldn't wake up from. I highly doubted that my grandparents would let me go to Mirio's party but I decided to ask anyway. Even if they said no I was still going to sneak out and go to it because I needed to leave this God-forsaken house. It felt like I was under house arrest, I couldn't even go to the store that was literally 5 minutes from our house. This entire thing was getting ridiculous and out of hand.

I just wanted to end it all, I was stressed and lonely. Every day I would watch out my window as everyone else my age was walking home from school. I hated it. All I wanted was to feel normal again but of course, that didn't happen. I started to cut myself with the blade from the pocket knife that belonged to my dad before he passed. It didn't fix anything and I knew that but at least I knew I was alive and could still feel. My family didn't know because by this point I was so good at faking a smile and a laugh that they thought I was fine. I just wanted my old life back. I wanted to go back to UA and for the first time in a long time, I wanted to see Tamaki.

All I wanted to do now was hold him in my arms and tell him how sorry I was. Nobody would notice if I died not Mirio, not Tamaki, and not even my family. I thought as I sat at the edge of my bed fidgeting with my pocket knife. I just want for this to all be over, all I want now is to just end this all. Then I wouldn't have to deal with the pain that all of this was causing me. I flopped onto my back and started to cry, I was all alone and nobody cared enough to see that. Nobody cared... 

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Sorry for this chapter and how it is. I'm not doing too good as of late and it kind of made its way into my writing. If anyone needs support or anything if you are going through tough times my messages are always open and I will listen and help if you need me to.

Word count: 636

Stay safe loves!

~Citrus the Bunny <3