Balancing The Trials Of Hearts

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Theme Warning: Rape

"Miss, next week na po ang uwi ni Sir Ivan. I-co-continue na raw po 'yung monthly vlogging niya and the good news is baka gawin na siyang weekly vlogs," Anna said excitedly but I didn't bother to talk to her.

"Miss, naisipan po ni Mr. Allen na kung pwede ay i-continue niyo nalang daw ni Sir Ivan ang couple vlogs niyo kasi ang dami po talagang nag-a-anticipate sa VanAes 'e," she said and giggled. I stood up and naglakad papunta sa may stairs.

"Also, Miss 'yung network po na kumukuha sa inyo ay nakikipag-usap na rin sa team ni Sir Ivan para loveteam na po talaga kayo," she said and chuckled. "Alam niyo Miss na-i-imagine ko na po na magiging sobrang sikat niyo na po. Mapapanood na po kayo sa TV, magkakaroon kayo ng maraming teleserye 'tsaka mga movies," she said excitedly.

"Stop it, I don't want to hear about that muna," sabi ko naman at agad na nag-sigh. I dont really wanted to talk about Ivan or about anything else.

"May masakit po ba sa inyo, Miss?" she asked. "Gusto niyo po ba na magpacheck na tayo agad? Hindi po kayo pwedeng magkasakit, Miss. Sunod-sunod po ang schedule niyo sa mga susunod na weeks 'e."

"Cancel them all," sabi ko naman and went inside my room. She went inside my room din kaya I shut my eyes. She can't sense na I want to be alone muna.

"Lahat po, Miss?" she asked. "Pero hindi po ba next next week na rin ang meeting niyo with the network and also 'yung inyo po ni Sir Ivan," she insisted.

"I said cancel them all," I said and looked at her. Trevor's graduation will be next week, that's important to him so I need to be there. "Leave me alone for a while," sabi ko and umupo sa bed ko. "Go," I gestured her to get out and she walked naman agad na parang she's hesitant pa.

After niya makalabas ay humiga ako sa bed ko.

"You changed"

What River and Yara said that night kept on repeating on my mind. I'm reflecting on myself. I really changed ba talaga kasi for me naman hindi 'e. I felt like I never changed, I'm still me kaya hindi ko sila maunderstand.

"What are you thinking?" Kuya asked out of the sudden. He was standing on the door na pala. I didn't notice him coming kasi I'm really lost in my own thoughts. "Can I sit?" he asked while smiling.

"Of course naman," I answered naman. I scooted a bit para makaupo siya sa side ng bed ko. I sighed and just stayed silent.

"Mind sharing your thoughts?" he asked me. "You know I'm a good listener," he said pa kaya napasmile ako. "Come on," he urged me pa and chuckled.

I bit my lower lip and sighed. "Kuya...did I," sabi ko pa and looked down. "Did I change?"

"Change is constant," he answered kaya napatingin ako sa kaniya. "We change because we grow," he said pa and smiled.