Admirable

PART 5

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Driving home feels like I'm in a daze. I can't help but think about how his fingers felt across my cheek. An amazing feeling spreads through my body and escapes at my finger tips. Its very difficult focusing on the road.
By the time we make it back to my house its almost one o'clock. My friends decided that it would be best to stay the night considering how late it was.
By the time I hopped out of the shower and brushed my hair I was mentally exhausted. The coolness of his pretense somehow chilled me. When will I see him again? I really hope it's soon, I can't get enough of him. How will I see him? I don't even have his number...crap! Sadness shadows over me, like a dark cloud. I hop into bed and look around my room. My friends are now starting to pile in. Each curling up in a sleeping bag.

"so Kennedy I saw you getting comfortable with Tom?" Her brother starts the conversation.
"We were not getting "comfortable" or what ever your implying, we were just talking...if you got to know him he's really sweet." That makes me nauseous.
"Ken-Kennedy." I stutter. "One of the first things he said to me when he saw me was that I basically have no boobs."
She then raises an eyebrow at my response.
"Well did you say anything to provoke him?" She asks matter-of-factly. You have got to be kidding me!
"Kennedy...it's Tom we are talking about, you can be the sweetest person in the world and he will still have something to say about you."
"Well he was being really nice to me today so I don't know." She's defending him.
"Kennedy I can tell you like him, just admit it! He obviously likes you too, he basically told me today."
Her eyes widen and her smile grows. I guess Tom isn't that bad looking if you get past the breath and badly combed hair. Maybe she can change him...for the better that is.
"Well I need to talk to him about a couple of things before he ever considers...getting this." She rotates her hands around her face and down her body. We all bust out laughing.
"Well enough about Me." A wicked smile plays on her face. "Why don't we draw attention to Ariah and John?"
Everyone turns towards me and my stomach instantly turns up into knots.
"Well..." I persist. "What about us?"
"Don't pull that card Ariah, we all saw how you guys acted in front of each other, especially that darling smile he gives you, I could just melt if he looked at me that way."
"Well as much as I want to admit something is there it's sad to say there isn't...he didn't even ask for my number, so it's safe to say that he's not planning on seeing me anytime soon." As soon as those words fell out of my mouth I feel a tight pain in my chest, and stomach. A hush fills the room until someone responses.
"Well Ariah, maybe he's just nervous ya know?... I mean I would not ask for someone's number yet...he's probably planning on asking you the next time he sees you."
A little pain from my chest is taken away but a lot still resides.
The conversation hops from the who saw who at the party, who looked the best and who looked the worst. I started to doze off trying to forget the night as a whole. I usually don't take long when I'm this exhausted but I've just been having so much on my mind. I replay the whole day in my head and there really isn't anything I would change. Except maybe that purple headed girl who came out of no where. Who was she? I don't want to think that maybe her and John are or were together but he acted so weirdly around her. I hope that he was never with someone, i cant stand to think that he touched someone how he touched me. Jealousy and jealous thoughts start to fuel my ego. Im left contemplating my whole life choices and how they have brought me to meet John.