Decapitated Dandelions

Something of Worth

I try to wear a filter because I want my rough around the edges to be on purpose,
So you dont have to see how I feel on the inside, a burden to my family because they plague me with evil thoughts that I dont want to be stuck with for the rest of my life
And I try not to live with them
So I block them out and throw away the key
Toss it down a well
And hope to fucking god my father doesn't come back and make me feel so small and unwanted again
It's his superpower
I dont know if I'm the protagonist In this story anymore
All I know is that it's been manipulated
And I dont see so clearly; when a voice is raised I cover my ears in self defence and puke my brains out because I cannot take any more trauma. I dont want anything to do with it.
I want to live far away from the pain. I want to move out of this dreary town that it all started in and get the fuck out of my trapped head. The head they trapped me in.
Entangling me into falsehood
That I am worth nothing.
A part of me knows though, that's far from the truth. I just need to burn a motherfucking bridge.
I am no mediator
I am no fuck up
I am something that came out of nothing
My existence means the whole world
And I cannot let them stop me from existing
You thought I was a flicker of a flame
But you got yourself a wildfire
And you're in a drought
I dont think you understand what's coming
Don't undermine my soul
You fuckers.
You senile batshit fuck ups
You dont get to tell me I am worth nothing