𝓘𝓶𝓹𝓮𝓽𝓾𝓸𝓾𝓼

CHAPTER 1

I closed my eyes enveloping the scent of Scorpius' expensive cologne. It had a tinge of orange citrus.

I hated it.

Like I hated most things.

Mother would say my temperament was just casual, but as I grew older things that bothered me, never truly bothered anyone else. I would normally start fights with Scorpius over unusual things. If he had a drink, I would usually have a comment. If he stayed up to long, went clubbing to often, or griped at younger students I would always say , "You shouldn't do that. It's only going to hurt you."

Of course he never would listen.

Mine, and Scorpius' relationship was anything but platonic. We fancied the sexual parts the other offered, and when it came down to affectionate nothings, we just couldn't offer it.

It was what we both wanted.

There was no need for real love. We needed someone to appease our family's without making it personal. We would hardly talk outside of school during holidays unless it was for a bootycall, or needing the other to make an appearance during a party.

In this case, It was to put on a show for our shared friends.

Across the train's compartment was Allison Parkinson , swallowed in Damian Nott's grasp. They whispered messages into each others ears emitting small laughs, and neck kisses. A relationship like that seemed like an effort- a part of myself I couldn't give.

Laying against the wall, with me in his arms, Scorpius swiped his fingers across the skin of my shoulder. Newly formed goosebumps threatened my freckled skin.

It wasn't a comforting touch, more of a solemn, 'Keep the act going' touch.

We had been dating for nearly 5 years. We both assumed different people during, but kept that private from the world. It was nobody's business.

It also didn't help when people, especially older family or family friends, would ask things like

"When would you get married?" "How many kids would you have?" "Would you move away?"

Oh yes. Far the fuck away from you sadist bitches.

I swallowed my anger and combed myself back into reality.

I noticed Elphias Zabini had joined and sat next to the lovely pair infront of me. He and Scorpius were discussing another home party Scorpius would be throwing at the manor. This was the last one considering we were going home forever. This- Hogwarts- was really ending.

I had no idea me and Scorpius would keep the whole 'dating' thing going. But we did. And now it was going to be harder to get out of, considering people thought we were madly in love.

I let a small laugh out at the idea.

"So, Scorpius, you think your old man's gonna let us drink some of that old rum?"

"Fuck no. But who gives a shit, he'll be away at the ministry, or taking on another one of his nightly endeavors. Either way, he'll be gone, and we can do whatever the fuck we want."

I interjected, "Baby, you don-"

He let out a exasperated sigh before taking his hand, once on my arm, to his temples rubbing gently.

"Honestly, Athena, are you going to be like this every time I even mention a fucking party. You wonder why I dont invite you."

I heard a snigger from Elphias.

"I'm just tryi-" He interjected again.

"Shut up about it."

It was like making a waterfall go the opposite direction. My anger wanted nothing more than to tell him off about being a dick. But I couldn't ruin this. I couldn't argue infront of them.

I needed to leave before it got the best of me.

I slowly pushed myself away from his body, and stood up.

"If you'll excuse me, I need to use the restroom."

I grabbed ahold of the handle when his large hand towered over mine. He groomed it, before quickly pulling me down to his face level. He took his hand off my wrist, and brought it to my cheek, carefully caressing it, before pulling me into a sweet kiss. It was sloppy, wet. Mostly unenjoyable. I've had better.

I pulled away and grabbed ahold of the handle again.

Opening it, I pulled myself out just before hearing,

"I love you."

I hated these 3 words. So fucking much. And yet I swallowed the feeling and spoke anyways.

"I love you too."

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(720 words)

*Chapter coming out tonight!!! Sorry for the wait. I have been up my ass in work. I can now say I'm caught up.