Don't Let Me Go (Jemily)

Chapter 5:

"If I got rid of my demons, I'd lose my angels" - Tennessee Williams

The team never got called out on a case, forcing Emily to be left alone to her own thoughts. She was meant to spend the majority of her day going over case files and filling out field reports, but her mind couldn't stop racing long enough for her to focus on anything. Thoughts of her previous conversation with JJ kept flooding her mind, along with the kiss. My god her lips. Every time she would think about the younger woman's lips pressed tightly against her own, her cheeks would tint with the same rosy color they had when the action occurred.

In her peripheral, she saw a perfectly manicured hand press down on her desk. Her eyes shot up, meeting the intense gaze before her of the woman who now seemed to be consuming her every thought.

"Did you want to meet at your place or drive together?" The blonde asked with a hard face still not breaking eye contact. Shocked and confused, Emily just stared at her with her mouth agape looking for something to say. Oh my god she still wants to come over tonight.

"I- I don't care whichever you're more comfortable with" Emily finally let out. Her gaze broke, and she turned back to staring at the mountains of paperwork before her.

"Listen Emily", JJ started before lowering her voice and moving closer so that pondering ears could not infiltrate the conversation, "what happens tonight is completely up to you. We can talk about me, we can talk you, or we can not talk at all. If you do decide you trust me enough to let me in, I will listen to everything you need to say, completely and utterly without judgment, just as you would do for me. I want to talk to you. I want you be there for you." JJ reached over lifting Emily's chin so that she would look at her, but was met with resilience.

Sighing, JJ got up to head out, not wanting to pressure the other woman into something that seemed obvious she didn't want to talk about. As she departed she felt a fingers tighten around her wrist. She turned looking back at the woman who was still not looking at her, surprised to hear "Do you want to drive, or do you want me to?"

JJ smiled.

"I'll drive. Meet you at my car in 15?" Emily just nodded before pulling her hand away and writing her last notes on the paper in front of her.

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The drive back to Emily's apartment was nothing less than awkward. Emily was clearly not in the talking mood and any attempts JJ made at conversation were returned with short one word answers or just a hum of acknowledgment that she was actually speaking.

As JJ parked and the women started heading up to the apartment, she noticed how standoffish Emily was being. It was understandable considering how intense their conversation had gotten at the beginning of the day, but she honestly didn't know how else to handle it. And regarding the kiss... she thought Emily would have tried pulling away or rejected her advancement, but she didn't.

That left JJ with two choices. She could go into this apartment with a physical approach or emotional approach. Knowing the trauma, at least partially, the other woman was facing psychologically right now, trying to peel back the onion layers of her emotion might not go over so well. That left JJ with really only one option.

Arriving at the door, Emily pulled out the keys to her apartment and pushed it open. She gestured her arm forward letting JJ in first, before she stepped inside and went to lock the door. When she turned back on her heels she was startled to feel JJ push her back against the door and lock lips with her. Even though she was surprised, it didn't stop her from returning the kiss. It was sloppy and heated and filled with desire. Hunger.