Ever The Same

Nerves

Chapter Seven- Nerves

It's been a few weeks since I was forced to see Connor. They both are out of the hospital and resting. Evan will be back at school soon and I don't think Connor even goes to school, but I didn't care enough to ask. What's important is that Evan is healing, but little did I know he would soon be in pain again.

I was sitting on my bed trying to do my biology homework, when Kendall called.

"Did you hear what happened?!"

"No. What?" I replied. Kendall sounded out of breath from excitement, yet at the same time kind of sorrowful.

"She lost the baby. Stacy isn't pregnant anymore! She's not going to have Evan's baby!"

It all hit me like a brick. Evan was free from Stacy. He wasn't going to be a daddy. He was free. But what about that poor baby. The whole thing was overwhelming. I was conflicted with feeling happy yet sad at the same time.

We just kind of sat there in silence. Neither Kendall nor I knew what to say. So eventually I had to go so I hung up.

I wanted to check on Evan. I wanted to know he was okay. He probably wasn't but I wanted to be there for him. But I knew this was between him and Stacy.

I knew deep inside that this was for the better. Evan wasn't ready to be a dad and Stacy never wanted to be a mom. The two would have had to put up with eachother for the rest of their lives and that would not have been pleasant either. Sooner or later they would just try to forget what had happened. And move on with their lives.

Suddenly my phone rang again and I angery reached for it thinking it was Kendall again. But it wasn't. It was Evan.

"Hey," I said in the happiest tone I could manage.

"Hey... Did you hear the news?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry Evie." And the line was silent for a few moments.

Evie was an old nickname that I'd had for him. It all started when I saw him walking around outside really late one night. I called out to him, but I wasn't exactly sober and instead of saying Evan I called him Evie. And the name stuck.

"Do you wanna come over? I really need to be around someone and I thought you'd be the only person who'd actually want to. Not many people like me." Bull shit! Everyone loved him. I guess he just wanted me there like I wanted to be there.

"Sure. I'll be over in 20."

"Thanks Iris. I owe you."

"It's not a problem. Don't worry about it." And then I hung up to get ready. I wasn't sure how Evan was going to act. Would he be depressed? Would he try something?

I wasn't sure, but no matter what he did I knew I wouldn't be able to look away from him. I wanted to pour my heart out to him and tell him how much he meant to me. But I couldn't do that. I had to keep it in. He couldn't know. Nobody knew. And nobody was going to.

When I got to Evan's he was waiting for me by the door. He quickly pulled me inside and pulled me into a hug. I was taken off guard by how tightly he held me. I stroked his head and whispered how everything was going to be okay.

And then he surprised me again. He thrust me against the wall and crushed his lips againest mine. I could feel the need behind his kiss. The need to feel love. The need to forget his pain.

As much as I wanted to pull away I was never one to have that much self control. I jumped up wrapping my legs around his waist pulling his body even closer to mine. He caught me just in time his hands now holding me up under my ass.

He held me tighter and slowly pulled away from the wall. He slowly carried me up the stairs to his room. He almost dropped me before we reached the top step and he had to pull his lucious lips away from mine for a few seconds.

He slammed the door of his room with his foot before gently laying me on the bed. The fabric was soft and warm against my bare arms.

For a moment we stood there. Him beside the bed. Me laying there. We just kind of stared at eachother. And then the sweetest smile crossed his face. He took a deep breath before slowly jumping down beside me. I grinned and laughed before pulling him close to me. He joined in on my laughter as he wrapped his arms around my waist and rolled us over so I was now on top.

My hair fell in my face as I leaned down to plant a gentle kiss on his lips. I felt my cheeks flash bright red right at the moment he carefully brushed those annoying hairs behind my ear.

"I want this to be perfect," he whispered. "Because you're perfect Iris."

At his words my heart melted. I felt his hands slowly sliding up my back and trace their way to the hook of my bra. I didn't have a clue what I was doing or why I was doing it. I just needed Evan. I knew I always had felt a need for him, but never like this before. And that was a good enough reason for me.