Ever The Same

Unsettled

Epilogue  

"Come here," Evan said as he pulled me on to his lap.  

"Is that really appropriate?" Anna smirked as she squeezed Zach's hand tighter. They smiled at eachother before they snuck in a quick kiss.  

"Speak for yourself," I said with a mock expression. Then I leaned close to Evan and we did our worst impression of Zach and Anna kissing. It was over exaggerated and sloppy and just straight up werid, but that's just how we acted. 

We were stupid. But we were perfect for eachother.  

After high school Evan went away to some college and I didn't get to see him for two years, except when he came to visit on holidays and such. But we had a strong bond and made it work. 

I was a year behind Evan so after his first year of collage I had just graduated. Instead of going away for college though I choose to move out of my mother's house, get a job, get an apartment, and attend community college for four years.  

After Evan's two years of college he came home and we moved into his old apartment. Only this time his parents weren't the ones paying for it. We were.  

After I finished college at the age of twenty-two we took another step in our relationship. Evan and I were going to be together forever and we both knew it. There was only one thing we hadn't done and decided to do. That year we got engaged.  

Most people have a hard time in their first year of marriage, but for us it was all a rush of happiness. We already lived together, so not that much really changed. Evan still loved me like nothing he had before and I loved Evan with just as much passion.  

Sometimes I still wonder about Connor. I know something happened between them, but Evan won't tell me what, but he always gets awfully sad whenever I bring it up. Sometimes late at night I remember that dream I had when Connor came to me after the first night I'd spent with Evan. And other times I remember how he hurt me. And I can even still remember the dream I had after he attempted to rape me.  

I know I should just let it go and I know someday I will. But for as long as Connor remains a mystery I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to feel released from him.