ABSOLUTELY POG {tommyinnit}

{fourtythree}

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Her eyes now on him as he stood in the door frame, his tall shadow entering the room with him. "Tubbo look for your favorite one and play it," she pointed to the vinyls in which Tubbo just nodded and began to shuffle through them.

Tommy simply smiled down at the small interacting between two of his favorite people. Savana walking passed him as she headed for her gaming room, Tommy following close behind.

As her hand met the door knob she turned and looked to him, "what is it that you want?" she asked cocking a brow causing Tommy to laugh.

"I just wanna talk to you. Am i not aloud to want that?" he teased pushing open the door. "No you aren't," Savana laughed wobbling over to the couch.

Tommy choose to sit in the chair, doing a spin in it before looking to Savana, or more importantly her hazel eyes that seemed to be just a little bit greener in the winter.

"Well what's up?" she felt her heart beats quicken in pace as her eyes began to travel around the room to avoid eye contact. "I talked to sapnap, and I just wanna let you know that I love women-"

Savana felt her hand smack her forehead, flinching as her hand brushed against the stitches. "Shit," Tommy muttered, "Thats wasn't the point of what I was trying to get to I just really don't know how to talk to you," he laughed nervously.

Savana looked at him, tilting her head slight. "Just talk to me the way you would over discord or facetime," the two now made eye contact.

"Well it's easier over those things, confrontation isn't really my thing," Tommy rubbed the back of his neck breaking the small amount of eye contact.

"Tommy just say it, i'm not gonna judge you."

Tommy then felt this rush of adrenaline take over him as his head shot in her direction.

"Savana I love you, I seriously do and I don't know how much longer I can go without saying those three words to you, I know they are just words but I mean them. This is the first time I've meant it to a girl that wasn't my mom, and quite frankly i'm nervous. Are you okay? Why are you looking at me like that?"

Savanas face was filled with mostly shock as she looked at the boy who rambled on, as she tried to process each word he said.

"Tommy," she began to choke on her words as her eyes met his. "I love you too, and I'm not really sure how to love but ever since dream told me it's about this warm feeling you have in your chest when your around them I was sure I did. Because even when you aren't around and I think about you this feeling in my chest just doesn't go away."

The two looked at one another the same sense of shock on both of their faces, the silence was loud as they just looked at one another.

"Savana-," before he could even say a word the girl shot up and pressed a kiss onto his lips. Tommy was take back by it but quickly adjusted and kissed her back.

Savana slowly pulled away. "I don't know if this is what you want, but I know that I want to be with you. We may be young but the feelings I have for you just aren't gonna go away."

Tommys face was now a bright shade of pink as he looked to her, "you stupid american, of course I wanna be with you. Savana will you do me the honor in being my girlfriend...again?"

Her face grew in a smile as she stood on her feet, the one in the cast dragging as she approached him, Tommy then stood to his feet.

"There isn't anyone else that I would want to be with Tommy. Yes I will be your girlfriend again," the two met in a hug, as she pulled him closer, Tommys hands rested on her back for a sign of support to the injured girl.

"I'm sorry that all happened, I shouldn't have left you, that.. that was stupid," he whispered still holding her. "You just had my interest at mind, no worries," she pulled out of the hug, stumbling a bit on her feet as she looked up to him.

"Thank you Savana."

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"Sap have you ever loved someone?" the two sat in the room alone as the clock struck three am. "Well I loved mom and dad."

Savana turned to him, "i used to love them with everything in me, but then what they did to you. When they showed there true selves around me I grew to hate them, but you... i always loved you."

The conversation grew incredibly deep within seconds, "I mean someone who isn't family, like a girl.. or even a boy.. or someone non binary anyone," Savana looked up at him as his face flushed in embarrassment.

"Did this scene in maze runner make you think about love," she looked up to see the scene where Thomas is running through the captivity space looking for Teresa.

"No it's just I don't know if I know how to, no ones ever really loved me besides you," she looked over to him as his expression dropped.

"Love is a very complicated thing, and sometimes people like us. People that didn't always have it easy make up ideas of what love is because they've never felt it really. But love is just the feeling of happiness, the deep connection you have with someone, the feeling of more then just a simple liking towards someone like they set off those stupid butterflies on your stomach," Sapnap sat up straight looking over at his sister as her head tilted slightly.

"Have you ever loved someone?" his face then turned to a slight frown. "No I've never let myself get that close to anyone, i'm scared there always gonna leave so I distance myself before I get the chance."

Savana felt as her face turned into frown as she looked up at her older brother. "Anyone is lucky to have you...friend, boyfriend any of that bullshit," she watched as he began to laugh, she followed in a slight chuckle.

"I'm glad i have you savana," he looked to her grinning wider than he had meant to.

"I'm lucky to have you nick."

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but like love is complicated you know i'm venting to my readers rn and i don't even care but like

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