I know we experience new things in life we tend to be afraid.
But why does in my life I continually feeling Worried, Worried that the outcomes they want would not be possible for me.
Well it is not that I'm surrendering already
I am just HOW? How could I?
Is it even possible?
"Pearl!!" My friend Jessie waking me up
I was pretty drowned to my thoughts in my sleep
After I heard her I immediately stretched my hand and legs
"Better be fast, We'll be late" Kath called out
We've been living together for like a year but friends since we are 12 years old.
We decided to meet our past middle school classmates, Well at one point in life those people were close to us.
After getting ready, We headed to the said location for the meet up
Some part of me is shaking 'cause I kinda think this is embarrassing
your once crush before became a married with a child now.
well don't get me wrong I'm happy for him and his child and his wife
I just felt all this years I was the only one with no change at all
I'm just me, all I can think of is being me
I haven't experience half of their experience
but...
why do I feel I am being late on something?
why do I feel I need to rush?
why do I feel I need to make a move now?
I know it is not the time for me, I should wait for my time
But I do not know if my time already passed or hasn't come yet
How can I be sure with my own life
How can I be sure I am on my own phase?
How can I prove myself I am doing good?
and why do I need to prove something?
My life isn't perfect full of ups and downs but all I can say is nothing in this world would be exactly perfect because we humans can't achieve that level of contentment.
We strive and strive to aim what we think is perfect but in the end of the day we just became exhausted for being us.
Then we will know we aren't in the right path,
we need to keep searching.
and searching.
And that is my life is about.
to search my own purpose and to give myself an explanation.
to realize how can I be competent and contented.
This journey that I hope that I could complete and be happy with the outcome.
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My Incompetent Life
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