A Letter from Me to You

Day 004

Ikaw!

OO, ikaw. Why are you like that? Why do you keep on staying in my mind. Am I crazy? I shouldn't be.

Shocks! Missing you caused me no good. I'm being stucked up on what we used to do. The roads we took, the malls we roamed, the cars we rode. I just feel so wrong without you? What did you to me? I miss you buddy. I really do.

"Ayokong mamiss ka pag nagkalayo na tayo kaya ginagawa ko ito."

"Eh sira ka pala eh, akala mo naman tama yang ginagawa mo? Sira ka talaga. Nakakinis kaya."

Tinawanan mo lang ako. I made face then slapped your shoulder...awhile later, we laughed. Isn't it crazy? We laughed for something not funny. We are so comfortable in each others presence. We used to hang out with no reason. Is it wrong to be with you, my friend. Why is it everyone is against it? Do I look like a bitch now? Just wanting to be with you made me a bitch in your girlfriend's eyes. I just love your company. You are my only true friend. The one who understands me without explaining myself? Can't I stay with you? Can't I be close to your girl? I want to be her friend. I want to support your relationship with her. But why can't I go near her? I just want you to be my friend. Malandi na bang matatawag yun? I'm just here to be your guardian. I'm just here to be your friend.

It hurts me so bad whenever they think of us as lovers. I love you. Yes, I really do. But only as my bestfriend. I treasure you because you are special. I treasure you because you are my bestfriend. I love you but I love them too. You know that. You know that I am like this to everyone I love. To everyone who doesn't leave me especially on tough times. It just so happened that it was you who's with me all the time.

Gusto kong ipakita sa lahat kung gaano ka kahalaga. Kung bakit ka mahalaga. Gusto kong ipaalam sa kanila na ang lahat ng meron tayo ay mahalaga. I don't want them to ruin our friendship just because we gave too much importance to each other. I'm hurt...it deeply hurts me that they want us to be apart.

Iniisip ko, am I inlove with you? But I said NO. I just miss you my friend. I just miss those moments we used to do.

Pakiramdam ko, nawalan na ako ng kaibigan. I tried to let go and move on but it sucks. You wanna know why? Because they don't know me the way you do. I'm tired of explaining myself over and over again. I miss you! Sana lalaki na lang ako para naman walang malisya ang paglapit ko sa'yo.

Shara