EDITED :)
"It's always and Tubbo, isn't it?" Tubbo asked, seeming annoyed. It was the first time he mentioned anything but it had been playing on his mind.
"Hmm?" Techno was confused to say the least, he didn't mean anything by it other than both of the boys were awesome.
"Tubs, let's not do this now. Please." Phil pleaded with his son while looking over at the group of anxious and confused people.
"When will we do it then Phil? No offence to Tommy, love ya Toms, but he's barely made an effort to join this family and I've tried my fucking hardest but you know, let's sing songs with Tommy and teach him how to play the guitar. Let's protect him cos he's young and fucking vulnerable. I'm a child too." Tubbo said, tears starting to fill his eyes, he loved Tommy and was happy for them both but he was feeling really left out.
Everyone stared at the boy, bewildered by the sudden outburst.
Wilbur went to walk over to him but Tubbo just pushed him away, the one person he wanted was Tommy but he knew Tommy wasn't going to comfort him.
He hadn't meant to but he'd upset Tommy and thrown him in when that wasn't his goal.
He just wanted to feel like more of the family.
"You say we're a family but I've never felt so excluded in my fucking life. I've never felt so far from Tommy but this is a fucked up family who obviously only wanted one boy but you know what fuck it, let's take them fucking both." He was infuriated and wanted nothing more than to just curl up in a ball and cry but he couldn't, he wasn't weak and wasn't going to crumble infront of this massive group of people.
"Tubbo, please stop shouting." Tommy said quietly.
"Toms, I- I didn't mean anything against you..you know that right?" Tubbo looked anxiously at Tommy, but just as he figured Tommy looked heartbroken.
Tommy just nodded and smiled sadly at Tubbo.
"Toms, I really didn't. I just miss how close we used to be. Please Tommy." Tubbo was stumbling over his words and could barely speak a full sentence but he wanted Tommy to know it wasn't about him.
"Tubbo, stop. We just made up." Tommy said simply and turned away.
"This is what I fucking mean. Less than two days ago we had a very similar argument. It's all cos we came here. That's the fucking problem." Tubbo screamed.
"Tubbo, please-" Tommy tried butting in again.
"Tubs, I think that's enough." Phil said, trying to end it as soon as possible.
Tubbo looked around, everybody but Tommy was staring at him, perplexed. Tubbo turned around and walked in to the kitchen.
"What the fuck?" Wilbur asked after a few moments "Tommy is he okay?"
Tommy just shrugged his shoulders and laid down on the couch.
"I mean he did stand there swearing, telling us about how much of a shit family we are but i think he's fine." Tommy said once nobody had started talking again.
"Toms, why don't you ch-?" Phil said
"He doesn't wanna see me. Why don't you check on him?" Tommy rolled his eyes and looked away from Phil.
Phil nodded and turned to walk into the kitchen but he couldn't see Tubbo anywhere.
He looked around the whole kitchen and still couldn't find him. "Techno!!" he shouted and Techno ran in, followed closely by Tommy.
"Tommy may-" Phil started.
"Shut up Dad. He knows it's about Tubbo let him know too." Techno butted in almost immediately.
"He's not here." Phil said reluctantly but Tommy just laughed.
"How in the world is that funny?" Phil asked, bewildered by Tommy's response.
"Because if he has fucking decided to run away, firstly, he's not going to get very far. Secondly, he would've broken our promise." Tommy stated, he didn't find it funny but how else was he supposed to respond?
—- (Tubbo)
Tubbo walked into the kitchen and let the tears fall out, from the other room he could hear Wilbur, Tommy and Phil talking.
It was all too much for him, he wanted some alone time so he took it upon himself to get that alone time.
He went into the garden and sat there, looking at the forest just behind the house.
"Nobody will notice if i'm gone for 5 minutes, they're probably all looking after Tommy." he muttered to himself.
Tubbo stood up and started walking to the trees, he climbed over the fence which lead to the forest and ran straight in.
It felt nice, the cold breeze on his face , the leaves crunching under his feet.
He felt like a child again.
After running for what seemed like hours but in reality was only 5 minutes, Tubbo sat down on a random log.
He was tired of being sad and feeling like the world was against him.
He was tired of fearing for Tommy.
He just wanted to be a child.
He laid his head down and fell asleep, listening to the sounds of nature surrounding him.
A/N:. I'm really enjoying writing this and i'm hoping to have the next part out tomorrow but no promises cos it's my birthday today and I just want to spend time with my family. Have a great day <3
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