Hey guys, Ik i havent been updating and I'm sorry, like I said school has not been kind to me and neither my mental health.
And it's sucks cus I'm in the healing process of getting better, like fuck I'm so close. But my parents don't see that. They just see all the missing assignments and not me fighting to get my will to live back. Not the fact that I just started loving myself and all the self care I do my best to practice.
And so basicly there gonna take my phone and....this is gonna mess me up a lot. U see my phone has been with me through everything. And Ik I sound crazy but it's really important to me. It's kind of like and extension of myself? Plus I'm really attached. It been with me when I was at my lowest (yes Ik I sound really sad and pathetic rn).
When I was suicidal. Ik people talk about being suicidal like it's nothing, and hell I even do it sometimes. But when u get to the point in ur life where u just don't want to be alive anymore. To know full well what death means and want it, and not care about if anyone will miss u. To not want an after life either, just to simply not exist. It just....ldmkdndnf.
But I had my phone. With all my friends who I should've reached out to more, but whenever I did they were there, I had tic tok to basically be my therapist, and ofc lumity fan fics to give me something to look forward to everyday. And tic Tok basicly taught me to self care. And also how to be a decent human being lol.
So yeah this phones really important to me. And there just gonna take it away. Not even my dad literly said he my phone is gone "permenantly" and I'm terrified. A lot more scared than I should be. This phone gives me an instant source of joy and a place to recharge. And I'm scared to lose it.
And it's fucking annoying cus I am catching up on my grades, but they still done fucking care. So yeah sorry for venting. If u read all this ur a trooper. I love u all and thx for reading. Sorry I only have one chapter out. IVE BEEN WRITING THE SECOND ONE!! It's like 1/3 of the way there. I wish I could write more but u already know why I can't.
Ily u guys. I hope good things happen in ur future and I'm sending good vibrations to our fucked up nation. Adios putas.
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Lumity (sibling AU)
FanfictionOwo first story that I'm writing and it's 1 in The morning...hell yeah. So basically this is an AU where all the different Luz, amity, ect are siblings. Like beta amity, pilot amity, and regular amity + twins and beta twins. If u don't know what the...
