Moments like these (BoyXboy)

12❤︎// I dont want this feeling to end

Louis POV

So much has happened with in almost two months. Liam found out about Zayn's tumor and so did Harry. Zayn has been going to the doctor every other week to check on it. I really admired the way Liam just accepted his condition. Unlike Zayn's, I can't get rid of mine. God if Harry found out if he knew my condition he wouldn't have a single thing to do with me. If I feel like this then why was I still sitting here? Here I was sitting on his couch waiting for him.

"Hey lou sorry it took me so long."

Shrugging my shoulders he smiled. He sat down and put his arm around my shoulder as the office (one of my favorites) came on.

"Oh my gosh they still play this show."

My eyes brighten seeing his goofy smile. Looking back towards the screen I couldn't help but wonder.

How would Harry honestly feel if he found out about me? Soon the show ended and I followed him to the kitchen.

"Want some grilled cheese and tomato soup?"

Shaking my head he raised a brow.

"Are you okay babe your acting a bit weird."

I felt my self began to sweat.

"I'm fine." I lied.

He stared at me a bit longer before he shrugged and began getting things out to make lunch. I couldn't help but think that Harry wouldn't mind my condition. Or at least I want to think like this. My eyes watched him pour soup into a pot and spray a pan down to make sure the bread didn't stick. His phone soon lit up as his moms name appeared. Picking it up he slid his thumb across the screen.

"Hello? Hi mom what's up?"

I watched as he pulled the slices of bread from the bag.

"What do you mean I left your car on empty? I didn't even drive it at all this week?" Looking up his eyebrows where knitted together.

"Mom I didn't use your car!"

His mom began yelling at him through the phone as Harry yelled back at her. I soon got up unnoticed and did what I always did. I found my heart beating fast as I went up stairs and entered Harry's room. My eyes landed on his closest. I open and closed the door. Sitting on the floor I put my hands over my ears as Harry's voice got louder. I began to quietly count to ten.

"1...2...3...4...5..6..7..8..9...10"

I restarted again.

"1...2.."

"Louis? Louis where did you go?"

"3...4..5.."

"Lou?"

Harry stood outside the closet door. I ignored him and continued to count.

"6....7..8"

The door soon flung open and I finished the last numbers as my eyes met Harry's.

"9....10.."

His eyes widen and he squatted down. I went to scoot farther away but he grabbed my arm. I go to count again.

"1.."

Harry looked like he was going to cry before grabbing my hands from my ears and holding them in his.

"2.." He whispered.

My eyes widen at him as he began to count with me. After we made it to ten. Harry spoke normally.

"Baby do you need to count again? We can count as many times as you want."

Shaking my head Harry sat on his butt crisscross.

"Louis I'm sorry."

Shaking my head I held my knees close to my body and laid my head on the top of my knees. We sat there in silence before Harry spoke up.

"Louis there is nothing wrong with being autistic."

At this moment I buried my face into my knees. Harry sighed and kept talking.

"Louis, baby I hope you know I'm not going to leave you because of this. I'm sorry I got loud with my mom on the phone. I didn't mean to frighten you."

I listen to him scoot closer to me.

"Lou I don't expect you to tell me why you do this now. Nor will I make you tell me."

My body was soon scooped up. I buried my face into my boyfriends chest. He slowly made his way down the steps. Finally he sat me on the couch. On the table in front of us was soup and the grilled cheese.

I finally met Harry's eyes as he rubbed comforting circles on the top of my hand.

"Like I said Louis. I don't know why you did that but I will tell you this. I won't hurt you the way whoever caused you to do that. I'm here to protect you not to scare you."

I felt hot tears roll slowly down my cheeks. I finally hop on top of him and kissed him harshly.

"Stop talking."

Kissing him harder Harry pushed me down and was now on top. My hands resting on my chest I laid there breathless staring at this boy in front of me. His long curls hung past his face as he looked down on me. His eyes filled with compassion.

"God lou if you only knew what the hell you do to me."

Shaking my head he smiled before putting his head beside mine and hugging me tightly. His breathe hot on my ear he whispered.

"Don't ever leave me."

Putting my arms around him I tighten my grip.

"No Harry don't ever leave me."

I was always the tough guy. Always kept up a strong front. I would let my guard down here and there but with Harry? It was like I didn't have to protect myself. It was like in a way I was going to be okay and it's been a while since I've ever felt like this. I don't plan for this to go away any time soon.

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