I'm sorry; Merder (Meredith x Derek)

Two

Pov Meredith;

I opened my eyes, and tried to adapt to the strong light that was hitting me directly in the face, I felt lost, and did not know where I was, until the millions of memories suddenly overwhelmed me.

I was in a white hospital room, apparently I passed out, and I also remembered Derek's infidelity.

"Hi," Derek's sleepy voice whispered, his eyes were red and swollen, his hair was in a mess and in a nutshell, he was destroyed. "You just woke up, you passed out from a spike of stress, plus the onset of an attack panic and pregnancy, I got really scared and brought you to the hospital, we were here for ten hours. I was so afraid of meredith, but luckily everything is excellent, you and the baby are fine- he murmured running his hands through his tousled hair, and getting up from his chair to approach me, looking at me with fear and a kind of longing.

I wanted to slap him, and then pass out again, so I didn't have to think about Derek's horrible situation with another woman any more, I never felt so bad as right now.

"I woke up," I murmured, "and we need to talk," I said.

The faster we have this talk, the faster this awful suffering will end.

-Meredith- he said, crying again and grabbing my hand, trembling- Please- he whispered desperately

I pulled my hand out of his in disgust, and sat down so I could look at him better.

-I don't want to make this situation worse than it already is, and we are going to act like two mature people, for our sake and that of our family, so now I will speak and you listen, and then you will speak and I will listen to you- I murmured coldly while crying. He stared at me and then nodded, sniffing the snot from his nose.

-I'm going to go by parts. First of all, I am pregnant, with your son, because unlike you I was not unfaithful- I wiped the tears from my eyes with the fist of my hand- Second, despite our divorce I will let you continue to be his father and you are one hundred percent in the lives of our children, I will never deny you that right.- I continued.

-Meredith- Derek whispered trembling- Don't do this to us, please- and he approached desolate to hug her, the Necessary, I need to feel her at least one last time.

Meredith too, despite the disgust and pain that I was doing at the moment, what was necessary, so the hug also returned, feeling how they both cried at the same time, and in that silent hug they said more than a thousand words- You made us this Derek- I replied with hatred in my voice-

-Please, let's talk things over, I beg you- he whispered

-We will talk when I leave the hospital, right now I need to process everything and thinking about it, I'm not ready to talk about all this- I sighed and wiped the tears from my eyes- I want to go back to Seattle, you can come get your things, see the children, and there we will talk, then you come back and continue with your disgusting lover and your work that is more important than all of us-

-I will return to Seattle with you, I will stay, I want to be part of the pregnancy and you and the children are more important than anything else-

-It doesn't look like, Derek- Meredith just wanted him to get out of her sight, get him away forever and go back to Seattle so she could cry in peace and rethink her whole damn life and why she ended up in this horrible situation

-Meredith, it was a damn mistake, let me explain- he got on his knees again, begging her to let him do it while crying a lot-

-Don't get down on your knees, and go Derek, we'll talk in Seattle, when I get out of the hospital you won't say a word to me, nor will you speak to me, when we get to Seattle I'll rest and then we'll talk like adults. But if you don't want me to have another goddamn breakdown shut up, get me water, tell the doctor to discharge me, and then get out of my goddamn sight.

He nodded, getting up off the floor, obeying meredith's requests.