What I Became (complete) (editing)

Epilouge

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Wow I finished this way faster than I expected. Please read the note at the end. And if you want info on my new book look on the next update.
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I got off the plane and tried to get through the crowd. There were people everywhere. I was happy that I didn't bring much or else it would've been impossible.

When I finally made it through customs and out the door, I took in my surroundings. It smelled like flowers and fresh food. Nothing like the smelly inner city streets. There were couples walking hand in hand and people riding by on bicycle. I saw families eating at restaurants and women looking through shop windows.

Everything here seemed calm and just, right. Like a dream almost. Somewhere where time stopped and stayed serene forever.

I walked through the streets just enjoying the sunshine. I stopped at a cafe and had a cup of coffee and a muffin. I looked at the expensive clothing shops and even bought a few things.

Finally I managed to find my way to a hotel. It was my temporary home until I found a nice place of my own. I got a room and keys from the front desk.

The room was gorgeous, but what else would you expect from a five star hotel. The king size bed had a ton of pillows with plain white sheets. The bathroom was huge and had towels folded into swans like you see for those honeymoon couples. There was a sitting area with a couch, TV and even a piano.

The room also had a balcony that looked out over the beautiful city. I opened the grand set of French  doors and leaned against the railing looking off towards the Eiffel Tower. By now the sun was just steering casting a reddish orange light across the sky.

The beauty before me gave me an idea. I left the door open but went back inside. I sat at the piano and wrote a song. I used to like music back when I went to school, but I haven't played piano in forever it feels like. So it was more of a poem you could say.

But it was everything I didn't say, but wanted to. Everything I didn't know how to say, because it didn't seem right. Everything I was afraid to let out, for fear of dying. Everything I now realize I miss and left behind. It's by goodbye, to those I never said it too. To the ones I feel I let down. Like my friends still on the inside who may never get out. I tell my story for them so people know the truth.

"This is a story that I have never told. I gotta get this off my chest to let it go.

I need to take back the light inside you stole, you're a criminal and you steal like you're a pro.

All the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound.

So ashamed so confused I was broken and bruised."

I was lost before the attack. I had no where to go. Xavier and the gang life had taken away the speck of good light inside of me. I was trained to be a killer in the most conniving way possible. I tired to be strong yet I wasn't strong enough. I have the scars to prove it. Physical and mental.

"Now I'm a warrior now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor is made of steel you can't get in I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again."

Everything that happened to me made me tougher. The things I've seen are things no one should ever see. But to know I'm still here is proof enough for me that I'm stronger. The night mares may never go away but it's something I have to live with. I built up walls even a bomb couldn't blow down. Nothing can ever hurt me again. But it can sure as hell give it its best shot.

"Out of the ashes I'm burning like a fire.

You can save your apologies you're nothing but a liar.

I've got shame I've got scars that I will never show

I'm a survivor in more ways than you know."

I got through everything and now I'm ready to live a new life. To take what I've learned and run with it. No the bad parts like the killing, but the better sense of my surroundings. The gang can try and come after me again but I'll be ready this time to fight, and I'll be damned if I don't win. I can't tell the new people I meet about my past. Not long for fear of them finding me, or the disgusted looks people may give, but for the sake of forgetting. Like they say, the past is in the past. It should stay that way.

I survived hell. And I'm here to say, I lived. That's gotta count for something.

"Cause all the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused I'm not broken or bruised

'Cause now I'm a warrior Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior And you can never hurt me

There's a part of me I can't get back A little girl grew up too fast

All it took was once, I'll never be the same Now I'm taking back my life today

Nothing left that you can say

Cause you are never gonna take the blame anyway"

I was never ready for it. Well who really could be. It blindsided me. I guess you could say I really grew up in one year out of all my past 17. But that doesn't define me. And it shouldn't define anyone. Part of your life is just that, a part. No one is going to apologize for what they did to me. I have to suck it up and deal with it.

"Now I'm a warrior I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior And you can never hurt me again

No oh, yeah, yeah

You can never hurt me again."

So yeah I guess you can look at my story two ways.

You can feel sorry for me and what I went through. You can wish your life doesn't turn out like mine. Go ahead. I wouldn't blame you. I would probably do the exact same thing.

But that's not what my story is about. And that's not why I retold it for you.

It's about being strong and taking what's yours. No matter how hard you have to fight. In the grand scheme of things rules are just boundaries waiting to be crossed. You have to go beyond what's typical to get anywhere.

And in the end as I look out at the city below me,

I can truly say that I'm happy with what I became.

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The end.

No sure if I'm going to write a sequel. If you want one please comment and let me know.