body count | taekook

1| the first time

two old men & a bunny

JUNGKOOK
hyung!

SEOKJIN
yes gguk-ah?

YOONGI
is everything okay?

JUNGKOOK
i-

JUNGKOOK
i don't know

JUNGKOOK
it

JUNGKOOK
it hurts

SEOKJIN
what hurts?

SEOKJIN
gguk?

SEOKJIN
your making me worried

YOONGI
i'm coming over

YOONGI
what hurts baby?

JUNGKOOK
the tally

JUNGKOOK
it hurts

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It was the first time that Jungkook had had his body tainted like this.

It felt strange, someone you don't know, knowingly marking your own body for life. Creating marks and lines, ruining your pure skin by their own impure actions.

It wasn't like you weren't ever going to meet your soulmate. When the time comes, you will always meet your soulmate.

However, some people worry that they will be old and fragile - not yet having experienced the touch of another human, their own bodies ravishing and wanting for something other than themselves.

Jungkook had never felt the burning desire in his stomach, his mind too preoccupied with the burning feeling of lines appearing on his body everyday.

It starts off small, a little line on your wrist for the first sexual encounter.

Then it spreads, more and more, covering your body like some sort of disease. But this wasn't anything you could catch, it was fate, fate rolling the ball like a dice, except instead of numbers, the amount if heartbreak and pain you experience was printed on the side.

After the first time, Jungkook began to feel numb to the pain.

A small wince here and there had him squinting his eyes when more than three appeared at a time. Luckily, this was rare. But it didn't mean that the pain wasn't internal.

The emotional impact of having something so daring painted on your body was often what killed a lot of soulmates, that and the rejection of your true love.

It didn't kill you initially, but the pain and emptiness usually sent the individual into a deep dark place. Somewhere so cold and lonely, the only way out was death.

Jungkook's mother had been one of the few to actually survive a soulmate rejection.

Maybe it was the fact that she had a tiny little Jungkook by her side. Or more importantly, she felt complete within herself that the soulmate was just an extra.

His father, however, wasn't so lucky.

It felt strange to have a parent who survived the worst thing to ever happen and a parent to completely submerge themselves in the pain and horror of rejection, even when he had a perfect family sat at home waiting for him.

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surprising combination

YOONGI
he wasn't too bad when i arrived
i'm just sick of this happening

SEOKJIN
i know
but can you blame them?
you don't know when you're going to meet your soulmate
they're probably just worried that their time will be over before they fall in love

YOONGI
there's being worried and then just being an outright douchebag
of course they wouldn't know the true pain
since koo is too upset to ever leave the house
it bothers him more than he lets on you know

SEOKJIN
i know yoon
i know more than anyone
i just believe that now he needs to let go

YOONGI
is that really the right thing to say to him
after everything with his father

SEOKJIN
we can't keep tiptoeing around him because he lost a parent

YOONGI
but it would make us less of an arsehole
i understand
and i agree in some ways
but please
let's just support him for now
okay?

SEOKJIN
okay

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"Come here Koo."

Sniffles fell from the young boy as he allowed himself to be embraced carefully by the older.

He hated anyone touching him, afraid that they could feel the bumps from the scars left by all the tally marks building up over time.

Yoongi sighed, placing his hands on his upper arms, knowing that this was the only place either of his hyungs could touch without Jungkook breaking down.

"'m sorry hyung. For bringing you out." Jungkook spoke quietly, snuggling a little deeper into his chest, the tenderness from the tally's making himself jumper slightly.

They were being carved onto his upper thigh, the skin even more sensitive due to the reoccurring scars being left.

"You're not hassle. Remember that." Yoongi reminded him of his self-worth, something that happened often.

To say Jungkook was affected by this was a complete understatement.

The anxiety of having his soulmate reject him along with the pain of knowing how much pleasure they were having compared to the pain that Jungkook was in was incomparable.

But part of him wanted his soulmate to reject him, knowing that the way he'd feel then was nothing compared to how he felt sat around, hiding from mirrors and flinching away from any sort of touch. And part of him hoped that it would drive him away, just like his father.

His mother simply told him that experiencing this was a part of life. Even as his body was covered head to toe in thick jumpers, tears staining his cheeks, she still looked him in the eyes with a firm gaze and filled his head with lies.

That he deserved this. She couldn't have her soulmate so why should he have his. It was a never-ending cycle, one which Yoongi always broke, always reminding him how much he was worth how much people loved him.

"I brought kimchi. The red kind. Your favourite." Yoongi whispered gently, a small smile on his face.

Jungkook accepted the small tub of food, instantly taking a bite - he had forgotten to eat after all.

Yoongi bit his lip, Jungkook sat in between his legs, lent against his chest as the tv played quietly in the background, munching slowly on the kimchi.

He thought about raising the concerns Seokjin had, maybe questioning him a little, advising him to stop all the worrying and heartbreak because his soulmate wasn't worth it. But when he saw the glimmer of gold initials sketched into Jungkook's wrist and the boy himself tracing over them gently, he realised that this boy's soulmate could kill someone, and he was sure that Jungkook would love him all the same.

And it terrified Yoongi.

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tee hee first chapter

okay i'm super excited my mind is buzzing and i can't wait to write this

i'm mixing like the texting social media aus with normal writing hence the break inbetween and stuff

but what do u guys think?

there's lots to come and more things to be revealed as well as angst and heartbreak✊