Failure {(grown up) Katsuki X Reader}

11

Not long after bakugo left Angel had arrived and with food no less. As she enters the apartment she takes one look at you and knows immediately how worried you are.

"Alright come on someone needs to calm down." Rather than going to the living room like you expected her to she opens her arms offering a hug. Your surprised but none the less accept. "It'll be ok. He's been doing this for years now and hasn't had anything bad happen. This is just another day on the job for him." She rubs your back comfortingly.

"I know, but that doesn't mean I'm not still worried." She sighs pulling away from you.

"I know and that's why we need to get your mind off of it." She takes your hand and guides you into the living room. Instinctively your eyes wander to the tv. You get a small glimpse of bakugo and midoroya just before Angel shuts it off. "Rule number one, no tv."

"There are rules?" You quirk a brow at her as she sits down on the couch and gestures for you to do the same.

"Yes many now sit down." You sit down next to her and watch as she rummages through a plastic bag. "Rule number 2," she pauses pulling something out. "Relax!" You see she's holding up a pair of face masks.

For the rest of the evening she pampers you until you feel like a new person. Your skin was smooth your nails were nice an neat. Shes mostly successful in keeping you distracted.

"So how do you feel pretty woman?" She asks lounging back on the couch.

"First of all, thank you second, please don't compare me to the goddess herself Julia Roberts." She laughs at your comment and yawns.

"We should probably get some sleep, it'll still be a while I'm sure." You start thinking about bakugo what he was doing at this moment. How close to Nightmare he might be or if he was hurt. "Ok I can already see the dark circles forming." She stands up, as usual easily catching your attention as a goddess does. She grabs your hands and forces you to stand up. "Let's go to bed." You sigh nodding finally acknowledging the tiredness pulling at your limbs.

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"Kat you'll be careful right?" You ask taking his hands tight in yours. He smirks down at you.

"I'm always carefull aren't I?" His cocky smirk fades seeing the serious expression on your face. "I'll be just fine I promise. Just wait by the end of this I'll finally be number one." Your heart drops at his declaration. How at a time like this could be be focused on that stupid title. "I'll be fine." He takes your chin in his hand placing a gentle kiss on your lips. "I love you."

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"Dammit we've been out all night." Bakugo exclaims annoyed. Deku beside him sighs.

"We've tried every lead we've got. There's nothing. It's like he just disappeared." Deku stops a hand to his chin. "It doesn't make sense." Bakugo shakes his head in frustration.

"Look if this is going nowhere we should just give it up for tonight. Come back when we're better rested and maybe he'll slip up or something." Deku stares at him with a curious expression.

"Even on this difficult of a mission your usually the last to suggestion waiting." Bakugo could easily see the gears turning in Deku's head.

"What? What genius deduction have you come to this time?" Deku doesn't answer as a small smile makes it's way onto his face.

"Y/n's back didn't she?" Bakugo goes stiff at dekus words.

"That has nothing to do with-" Deku cuts him off.

"She's worried about you so you want to be back as soon as possible."

"Dammit Deku if you say one more fucking word-" Bakugo is cut off by the scenery changing. "What the hell?"

"So what's the number twos biggest fear?" A cold shrill voice echoed around in Bakugos head.

"Stay out of my head bastard!" The world around Bakugo keeps changing until finally it settles in his apartment. Bakugo can see many girly things splayed out on the coffee table. Face masks, press on nails, makeup, the works.

"Not what I expected it to be but it works none the less." The cold voice speaks slowly but determinedly.

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You grown flopping over for the millionth time that night.

"Are you sure it's not me, I can move to couch." Angel says next to you. You sigh and sit up.

"It's not you it's just-" you know you don't have to Finnish the sentence to know Angel understands.

"If it makes you feel any better, he hasn't gotten a single injury since I started working for him. So that proves that it's very unlikely that he'll get hurt." Frustration surges through you. You know she trying to help but she's only making it worse.

It seemed like every time you closed your eyes your mind instantly made up what it thought was going on out there. The things bakugo might be going through.

"I need to use the bathroom." You stand from the bed and swiftly exit the room. You close the bathroom door behind you leaning against it. You press your palms into your eyes trying to rid the tiredness. "Fucking stupid emotions fucking with my sleep." You push yourself off the door and look in the mirror. Instantly your darks circles make themselves known. Almost intrusively a thought enters your mind.

What better way to forget your emotions. You open the medicine cabinet and your eyes easily land on the cold medicine. That 10% alcohol just as enticing as it was before.

You grab the bottle staring at it. Your mind and body were at war. Your mind told you that this was a bad idea, that bakugo had trusted you in his home and he would never trust you again if you did this. But your body was telling you it was a good idea. You'd be rid of the stupid emotions that messed with you. You'd be numb once again with no worries.