My Day

Memories Come But Never Go

Travis's POV:

I've been dreaming a lot lately about when Isaac and I were younger I still remember the first day I noticed how cute he was. It was 7th grade year it was about a week before valentines.

I was walking down the hallway for a middle schooler I was tall if you ask Isaac I'm still tall every time I tell him I'm only two inches taller than him he always replies with "double that then add three". This was always his response I have always been about six or seven inches taller then him and he, I guess, has always liked that about me. So anyway I was trying to get to football practice. When I go to turn a corner there was a kid he was built like he could be a runner. He had short brown hair he let act however it wanted. He kept one hand over one of his bright brown eyes that were filled with a mixture of fear, surprise, joy, and anger. His arms and face were covered in bruises. Isaac looked at me "will you ever not randomly run into me ya big lug". There was a girl with him he had large um ... I'm just gonna say it she had big boobs. She had brown hair pulled back into a ponytail and her brown eyes were filled with anger. "Travis you big dope get out of our way I need to get Isaac to the nurse" "why? what happened?" "Some kids been bullying him and when he tells me who it is they are going to die" Isaac hopped up "Brooke, come on I just want to get to the nurse and get a band aid over this". He kept his hand there "wait Isaac please tell me who did it even if you won't tell Brooke I just want to help"

"Fine" he took his hand off his eye it was purple swollen shut right above it was a gash that was bleeding profusely "what the fuck Isaac I ask you for twenty minutes straight and I get nothing then the giant asks once and you instantly say yes" Isaac rolled his eye the leaned in to my shoulder "bring your ear down here" I leaned down lower then I needed to "It was Brayden I think his last name is Eller, yeah Brayden Eller that's his last name right". Suddenly, I was filled with so much rage just pure rage. Every part of me felt hot I marched off to Practice. Behind me I heard "Don't do something stupid" It was still him. Brooke seemed mad but so did I the worst part was I shouldn't be this mad. I may have know him since elementary school but we have never really talked but something in me just wanted to get him to notice me. I wanted to scream. I like girls not guys then why am I having the same feeling I normally have towards girls towards ... him. He was ...he ... I guess I need to do something about this. There was the door to the field. Brayden would be out there I guess I was going to confront him? "Brayden" I yell as I push the doors open "Travis your late for practice whats going on?"

I looked at my coach "Well I just found out that Brayden is bullying an old friend of mine" "oh is that true Brayden get over here and explain yourself" Brayden jogged over he is four inches shorter than I am but he is definitely bigger than I am I don't have a fighting chance if things get physical. "explain what coach?" "why am I hearing that you are bullying people?" "Oh you mean Isaac Mitchell no no no we got into a little scrap earlier but the principal decided to just let it be" I hated him from every statement he made "from what I saw your little scrap was pretty one sided he's covered in bruises and I don't see a scratch on you" He glared daggers at me "so you saw him" 'just a couple of seconds ago actually he was heading to the nurse last I saw him that black eye you gave him started to bleed". The coach looked over at him horrified. Brayden looked over at me. I saw his fists clench then her tried to punch me. I leaned into the punch so he missed by less than an inch. "you really shouldn't try to hit someone in front of a teacher or coach, more specifically the teacher who can get you kicked off the football team".

Coach told me to go to the nurse and talk with Isaac for a while and tell him that we would have to talk to the principal again ... I guess. "you went and confronted him for me it seems like you may want to tell me something" "I feel since we've know each other for so long we should stick up for each other but I hope you know this doesn't mean we're friends in any sense of the word I just can't stand physical bullying" "so you're not opposed to mental bullying "not 100% but relatively close to it" "funny". The principal called him and I in at the same time. Isaac told him about getting beaten up. I told them about my confrontation with Brayden.

I could hear Robert burst into the room behind us. "where is my brother and who do I get to murder?" The principal asked Isaac to go settle his brother he wanted to speak to me some more. "Travis was Brayden ever what you would describe as volatile?" "Why do you think he got his spot on the team? normally he gets out all that anger on the field but apparently not" "alright that's all we need for now you may go" I walked into a long hallway in the office of my middle school. Isaac walks over to me "thank you for doing this its been happening for years, normally I just move on and nobody knows. Some of these bruises are from months ago" He gave me a half hearted smile then he hugged me "I guess what I'm saying is thank you". Robert walked over "I hope we never have to do this again" (Oh how much we all did but it did happen again)

But in my dreams instead of wishing Isaac a pleasant day then bullying him years later I grab him and ask him out. In reality I did wish him a pleasant day then start bullying him. If I could prevent myself from doing one thing it would be bullying him. I tried to make myself seem more masculine to the football team because they despised femininity in men I personally find it something that is meaningless. Be feminine it doesn't make you any less of a man. Look at Robert I'm terrified of him and yet he is more feminine than most of our female friends. But those are my regrets in life doing the things i decided against doing normally are what I wish I had done or wish I hadn't done.

These are the thoughts we all have as we lay in our bed unable to sleep at 2 AM but mine are different (probably because I'm a fictional character in the story of a messed up teenager) these thoughts are what I think of while I see Isaac lying in my bed arm tightly wrapped around my chest snuggled up against me. I can't help but think of how long we've known each other then realize that for so long we could have been dating and that I was such an ass yet he still said yes.

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Quotes from Isaac: "Ugh I hated getting bullied it happened for so long. I started to bully myself because of it that is some real shit right there. Imagine everyday people get you down then you get you down and it happens for so long you really just give up I was at a point where I was living for other people but I put on a brave face and dealt with it but that day was a turning point it helped to show that even someone who doesn't even really know me cares about me even if it is just a little imagine how great that feels. I hate me, you hate me, and then there are all these random people who I don't even know that care about me over 7 billion people don't know me but assuming every person I don't know cares about me even if it is just a little that still adds up to a lot.