The Story Of Renee

Chapter Eight

Session 5 Thursday march 12

Renée

"Welcome back Renèe, lets get straight to bussiness. Last week we discussed your father which was a little off track, so lets get back to your past, more specifically your adolescent years. We last left off on the day after the party you attended with your bestfriend Alex I believe. So you can just continue from there." Mrs.Qumiby said, reading off her legal pad. I sighed "Ok."

Flashback

Every night before I would go to bed I would be on the phone with Alex. We would talk for at least a hour everynight. I dont know what it was but I was just extremly comfortable with him I could tell Alex any and everything and the girls at school hated that. They couldn't stand how I was the only female to ever get that close to him, because once again everyone and they momma wanted to be with Alex. But come to think of it all through out highschool he did not have one serious relationship. Well he did have one that lasted three months but even then, they still weren't serious. Anyways I remember one day Alex picked me up for school like he usually did. But that day.....that day he was angry, like beyond furious and I could feel the aggravation coming off of him...I had never seen him that mad before. I didn't know what to do, so I did what any good friend would and asked him what's wrong.

"Alex whats wrong? You seem tense."

"Nothing." He said bluntly

"It dosent seem like nothing. You look pissed off." He didnt say anything just kept looking straight ahead at the road.

"Just tell me what's wrong. Im your bestfriend you can tell me anything." I said and still he said nothing.

"Alex." Nothing

"Alex?" Still nothing

"ALEX!" He slammed on the brakes looked at me and yelled "SHUT UP, JUST SHUT UP NENE! Damn!" He screamed at me. I was shocked like seriously surprised he's never came out of character and talked to me like that before. It legit pissed me off, I understand he was mad but that gave him no right to speak to me the way he did and before he could continue driving I hoped right out the car and started walking. Instead of driving off like I wanted him to he got out the car and followed me. "Nene. Nene! RENÉE!" He yelled after me. He caught up to me and grabbed my arm. "WHAT!? What da fuck do you want. Cause when I wanted to talk you didn't soo WHAT!" He let me go, sighes and rubbed his hands over his face. "Look Nene I'm sorry ok....I'm-I'm just stressing right now....and I cant talk about it please I just need you too understand and respect my wishes." I could tell he was serious so instead of staying mad at him, I pulled him into me and gave him a hug. "Of course I understand I'm your bestfriend....thats all you had to say." I said whispering into his ear. He huged me back as if he didn't want to let go and finally we let eachother go and walked back to the car. "Oh and if you ever yell at me like that again......I will cut you." I said trying to be serious only making him laugh. Once we got to school I got out the car but Alex didnt. I figured he just wanted to be alone so I left him there, to collect hisself.

After first period I waited by Alex's locker like always but he never showed. I stood there again after second period and third period then fourth period but still no Alex. So at lunch I called him atleast five times but he didn't answer. In my heart I felt like something was wrong, but I refused to believe it. No matter how much I denied it I still couldn't get rid of the feeling. I mean first he blows up on me, then he ditches school and now he's not answering my calls. I didn't know what else to do. I thought about him all day, praying he was ok. After school I realized Alex not being here ment I had no ride home. "Fuck!" I yelled, kicking a rock. I sat down on a bench looking though my phone to see who was my best option to call and ask to come pick me up. While I was sitting there minding my bussiness one of the football teams meat heads came up to me. He looked to be atleast "6'2 and was black ass hell with those dirty ass dodo dreds. He grossed me all the way out. "Wassup Renée." He said sitting next to me. I said nothin in response and just waved. "Oh so you can't tell a nigga hi, to cute to open yo mouth?" He said. "Man fuck you, you irrelevant ass nigga I dont fuck with you that's why I ain't open my mouth the fuck, so unless I got something for you get the fuck up out my face." I said getting angry he got up pulling me up along with him and he was holding my arms tightly only to yell in my face. "Yo watch who da fuck you tallking to bitch a nigga just trynna talk to yo ass and you acting stank!" He let me go and pushed me. I spit in his face I know that's nasty but fuck him. "Fuck nigga watch who you talkin to." I said not backing down from him. He wiped my spit off his face, surpised I just did that. I grabbed my bag and started speed walking towards the parking lot. "Yo!" He Yelled after me, now he was following me and was pissed. I picked up the pace while digging through my bag looking for my mace. "Bruh get off me." I heard the boy say I looked back and saw Alex grab the boy by his shirt "Wassup with you kid leave ha alone." Alex told him "Man this between me and her that bitch spit in my fucking face." He said snatching himself away from Alex and continued walking towards me again. I pointed my mace in his direction. "Come any closer and I'll mace da fuck out you!" I yelled but he didn't listen so I maced him. He screamed "You bitch!" He jumped at me but before he could grab me Alex grabbed him and wrestled him to the ground, pinning him down. "I will let you go if you leave now." He said pushing the boy arm further into his back. The boy cried out in agony "Alright alright, just let me go." He let the boy go. The boy looked at me then looked at Alex and walked away angry. "Thanks Alex." I said walking up to him. "Why you out here by yo self kid." He questioned "Why da fuck you wasn't in school KID." I said geting mad. "Jus chill, let's go imma take you home." He grabbed my hand and we walked towards the car.
When we got to my house he parked his car in my driveway. "Thank you again for helping with that boy." I said. "Your my bestfriend remember?" I laughed. "You comin inside?" "Nawwww. How bout you sit here with me and we just talk?" He questioned and I agreed and thats exactly what we did. We sat in the car for hours just talking. We talked about school, life, dumb shit, dumb people, movies, our parents, and our futures. You know a regular conversation to end an abnormal day.

Flashback

"Ok Renée we're going to stop right there but do you have the project I asked you to do?"Mrs.Quimby asked. I nodded my head in response and went into my purse, pulling out my home made miny scrap book. I handed it to her. In the scrapbook were poems I wrote while in prison and from when I was younger. I also had pictures of me, Jordan, Renée, Alex, Stephan, Aunty Stacy, Uncle Tom, you know just my general family. She went threw it and smiled. "Looks like many lovely memories, I'll read a couple more of your poems. But so far from what I've skimmed through you seem pretty good, have you made a hobby out of this?" She asked. "When I was younger yeah but as I got older I kinda faded from it until I went to Prison and had nothing better to do with myself. While I was In there it was the only thing keeping me sane." She nodded her head and gave me back the book. "Well I suggest you go back to writting poetry. It could be a great outlet for you and continue doing the suggested trust and kindness exercises I told you about Ok." She said with a smile. I nodded my head. "Ok"

When I got home later that day I couldnt stop thinking about Alex. I really wish I could get in contact with him, I could really use one of our talks every now and then. I began reminiscing on the times we had together, I never realized how many good memories I had with him. Alex was a major factor in my life and I couldn't imagine my younger days with out him. I just pray he's ok and not upset with me. I made some dumb choices and wish I could take them all back.