Stuck //Muke//

Chapter 7: How To Save A Life

A/N Sorry I haven't updated in a few days :\ I've been busy with school and such. Anyway, tyvm for reading<33 Also almost at 200 reads?! That's so insane thank you so much!!

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-Michael-

I don't know how longer I can take this. I feel tired all the time. When time skips, it means I get no sleep what-so-ever and my body can't function like this. Calum has started to notice I think. He keeps staring at me whenever we hang out. My mum too. She's always asking if I'm okay. I always tell her the same thing, that I'm just tired but I'm alright. Not to mention Luke who is always concerned about me now. I don't need people constantly watching my every move and making sure I don't break. I'm completely fine. You know, aside from no sleep and my life passing by me.

"Hey, Michael. Dude!" Calum says loudly and snaps his fingers in front of my face.

"What? Oh sorry dude." I mumble and relax into the couch. Currently, Calum's at my house and we're watching some Netflix.

"Seriously, what's going on with you? You're always tired or zoned out. I'm really worried about you." Calum says softly.

"I..." I really want to tell Calum. Hell, I'm willing to tell anyone at this point. I feel like I'm almost at the point of insanity.

"Cal, I'm going to tell you something but you have to promise to keep quiet about it. You also can't call me crazy, okay? Just hear me out on this." I begin. I sit up straight and try to make this seem as serious as possible.

"Of course, Michael. I'm here for you." he responds and gives me all his attention.

"Okay." I say and take a deep breath. "I haven't been sleeping lately as you've noticed. It's not because I don't want to sleep because trust me, I do. It's just my life won't let me. My life has been skipping like when you skip scenes in a movie. That's why I've been asking what day it is so much." I say quickly. I just let it all flow out. I can only hold in all this crap before I blow up.

"Michael... are you sure you're okay?" Calum asks a little weary of me.

"Please, you have to listen to me. I don't know what's going on. It's really scaring me and it doesn't seem to be affecting anyone else. I don't know what to do." I say on the verge of having a full out panic attack.

"Okay, okay first of all, you need to calm down. Freaking out won't do this any good. Are you sure...that your life is... skipping?" he asks a little unsure.

"Yes, Cal, yes!"

"Okay, I think we need to tell your mom and then maybe talk to a counsellor about-"

"No!" I interupt him. "No, you said you wouldn't tell anyone. Calum, I really need help and this isn't normal I know but please, I need your help." tears begin to well up in my eyes. I'm begging Calum to help me but I doubt he even knows what to do.

"Alright, Mike. I'm not going to tell anyone. I'm just having a little trouble understand what you mean. My life hasn't been skipping and you seem to know what's going on with me." Calum points out.

"I've only been pretending to know. I honestly don't know what's going on at school. Basically the whole school week never happened and it's randomly Friday. Then it's the weekend and it repeats over and over again." I say. This really isn't helping much but at least I'm telling someone.

"Okay, Mikey, I really think we should tell a counsellor. Maybe you have schizophrenia or something. You can develop things like that I think." Calum says calmly.

"Calum! I don't have a mental disorder! I'm fine! Aside from not being able to sleep and my life is passing by." I say and laugh a little. Cal just looks at me like I'm crazy which was exactly what I was afraid of.

"Don't you dare look at me like that. Calum, I am not crazy." I say and glare at him.

"Maybe you should at least tell Luke about what's happening." he suggests.

"No, hell no." I say and stand up. "He'll think I'm a freak and send me to a mental hospital or something!" I exclaim and pull at my hair.

"Calm down Michael! Maybe you just need to talk to a therapist or something. They can help you with things like this."

"No. Absolutly not, Cal. I told you, I'm not crazy! This is actually happening to me." I being to pace now. I don't know what else to do to calm my nerves.

"Mike, if you're not going to tell a counsellor or something you should at least tell Luke. He deserves to know if you have a menta..." Calum's sentence drops off as he realizes what he's about to say.

"Oh so he knows that his boyfriend is a mental case?" I yell. "That's fucking perfect!"

"Michael, please! I want to help you but I don't know what's happening to you. We really need professional help for this." Calum argues. "We can't just leave it alone. What if it gets worse? Maybe you have short-term memory loss or something."

"No Calum, I don't understand what's happening but it's not that. I just... I don't know how to explain it." I mutter and begin to feel hopeless. Maybe I'll be like this forever and I'll die from exhaustion.

"First things first. You need to tell Luke."

"No Calum. That's final. Unless this becomes life or death, I'm not telling Luke." I say angrily and flop back onto the couch. I rub my hands over my face a groan.

"Okay Michael. If that's what you want to do. But I really think telling your mum at the very least is a good idea." he says calmly. He scoots over on the couch and sits right beside me. He hugs me from the side and rest his head on my shoulder.

"It'll be okay Mikey. Whatever it is you're going through, it'll be okay. I'll be right by your side the entire time." Cal whispers and squeezes me a little. I sigh and lean into him.

"Thanks Cal, for not freaking out and calling me crazy." I mumble.

"Well I technically did but whatever man." he giggles.

"Do not giggle right now. You're supposed to be a man. Men do not giggle." I groan.

"Real men giggle Michael." Calum says and snuggles into my neck which causes me to chuckle.

"Alright whatever you say."

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A/N Filler chapter whoops. Next one will be better though! Hopefully this isn't too bad! I quite like it. Anyway, tyvm for reading and ilysvm<33333 (Song: How To Save A Life by The Fray)

~Mitchy<3 xxxxx