Unclosed Desires

Chapter 10: The Heart Of The Matter

Chloe got on with the rest of her day after Beca blew off their kind of relationship, she told Arizona of course but she told her in the middle of rounds so no fuss could really be made of it. She just asked what happened all between them going from room to room and Chloe told her all that she could, Arizona could see how upset she was and started to feel guilty about it.

But Chloe didn't want her to, none of it was her fault. Arizona was trying to help, and like she tried to explain to Beca, Arizona was just going to have a genuine heart to heart with her friend and then give Chloe a simple yes or no answer if Chloe was 'wasting her time' nothing else. She was going to go in no detail with her, that was to remain strictly confidential. But she said the same thing to Arizona than she said to herself, Beca was going to use any excuse she could to push Beca off.

She didn't see Beca the rest of the day at work. Neither of them did, not until they decided to go for a drink after work and found her sat there at the bar by herself. Slugging down a bottle of beer as if it were water. Chloe didn't actually see her since she took herself to the bathroom before even looking around.

Arizona put her hand on Callie's arm to excuse herself for a moment and for Callie to get them a table in the meantime, she wasted no time at all and made her way over to Beca "What the hell are you doing?"

"I was enjoying a drink in silence"

She looked to Stacie and pointed to the brunette "She tell you what she did?"

"Yes and I've told her she's an idiot" Stacie stated as she kept her eyes on Beca, swapping her now empty beer bottle for a full one. Beca just rolled her eyes at them both and carried on drinking.

"You're making a huge mistake"

"Why stop a habit of a lifetime" Beca shrugged, her voice as dry and completely dead as it was when she was speaking to someone she didn't have time for such as her mother.

"Beca. You know you don't want to end it with her else why would you be here drinking and sulking?"

Beca put the bottle back down on the bar and looked to Arizona "Look it's for the best okay? Clearly she wants something that I can't give"

"That you won't give cause you're scared"

"God I actually hope you stay with Callie tonight" Beca muttered beneath her breath, it going silent for a moment as Arizona just looked at her for a few seconds before then saying "Chloe didn't do anything wrong you know that right?"

"I know. It was just an eye opener okay, like I said she clearly wants something deep and real"

"And what makes you think you aren't capable or deserving of the same? Beca I know you're falling for her"

"How would you know? You've never seen me fall for anyone"

Which was true, the last time Beca had strong feelings for someone she was 16 which was a long time before she and Arizona met. She had gone 9 years without feeling anything remotely close to that...until now.

"That's exactly how I do know"

Beca saw Chloe come out of the bathroom in the corner of her eye and suddenly decided that she didn't want to be here. She already had one tense conversation with Chloe and she would rather not have another one, she would rather just be left alone because even though she was the one who ended the thing between the two of them she was still upset about it. But she didn't do relationships and she stuck by it when she said that she was selfish for ignoring that fact.

"Callie likes beer right" Beca slid off her stool, Arizona tried to take hold of her arm to stop her from bailing but failed, she just put the bottle on the table "Enjoy"