Unclosed Desires

Chapter 25: Band-Aid Covers The Bullet Hole

Chloe walked into the on call room when she got a page from Arizona for her to go there. She got there as soon as she could after being pulled to the side by Alex about the surgery with Lily. It got pushed back for another hour because of the lock down and further complications with the O.R schedule.

She walked into the on call room and found Beca and Arizona lying on top of the bed, with Beca being fast asleep whilst Arizona lay beside her with her hand resting on her arm. Chloe took a step in, taking her eyes from Beca and back over to Arizona "What's going on?"

Arizona kept her voice quiet as possible "When the alarms went off she got trapped in a hallway and had a huge panic attack. I managed to calm her down later but it really took it out of her so I told her to come in here to sleep" she let out a small breath and cocked her head to Chloe as she rhetorically asked "Did you know she can't sleep without being held anymore?"

Chloe then let out a sigh of her own as she nodded and landed her eyes back down onto Beca "Yeah. I know"

"And I just didn't want to leave her in case she woke up and freaked because she was on her own"

Chloe smiled gently to Arizona "You're a good friend, Arizona"

Arizona looked back over to Beca and saw her still sound asleep, she delicately slid her hand from Beca's arm and then slowly climbed over her and managed to get off from the bed without even making a stir out of Beca. She let out a sigh of relief and whilst she smiled to Chloe, she noticed soon enough that Chloe was looking at Beca with some kind of worry "What? What's up?"

"Was she really that bad that it caused her that much exhaustion?"

Arizona glanced back to Beca and before saying anything more she put her hand onto Chloe's arm and pulled her to the other end of the room by the door but still kept her voice quiet "She was locked in there for like two minutes but to her it may as well have been an hour. She's going through the motions of PTSD but she will break out of it Chloe she just needs help"

"From like therapy?"

Arizona shrugged "We talked about that and she doesn't seem too thrilled about that idea so I don't know but just help like making her see that we aren't going anywhere, that we're going to be the hands that she can hold to pull her through"

Chloe sighed and put her pressed palms over her mouth, Arizona just kept her eyes on her and shrugged her shoulders "What?"

Chloe dropped her hands as another deep breath came out of her mouth until she just looked back to Arizona and stated in mumbled manner "She won't let me touch her" before her cousin could even get confused by what she meant, she quickly clarified "Yes she wants to be held when she's asleep and awake at times for that matter. But now when I kiss her or even just put my hand on her waist she pulls away. Like I'm hurting her or something"

Her eyes filled as she shook her shoulders and cried "She doesn't even do little things like get changed in front of me anymore. She thinks I don't notice but I do because I notice everything she does I always have"

"It's her scar" Arizona then quickly stated, trying to get it out fast to try and put Chloe at some ease, but it just brought more questions as Chloe's brows pinched to her "She said something to you?"

"No but the changing in the bathroom and pulling away before you two get any kind of intimate? She doesn't let you touch her because she doesn't want you to undress her" Arizona sighed "You've not seen it have you?"

The more Chloe thought about it the more she realised that she actually hadn't seen it. She then took her focus back over to Arizona "You have?"

"I mean she asked me in the hospital if I could help her with cleaning it and changes bandages-I didn't really give it a thought that she might be waiting for you to leave...but I guess it makes sense"