There You Are, The Light to my Darkness...

Chapter four

Art credits: @kuzo_owl on Twitter

This chapter is a long one so enjoy ^_^

TW: mentions depressing thoughts, anxiety

I didn't know how I was going to face Clay again. Whenever I think of him I remember everything my dream was telling me about....

He does find me annoying I knew it... I should stop talking to him after today, he's going to see how stupid I am and stop talking to me anyway... I'm not good at anything all I do is destroy everything I touch....

I could barely get up to go to school, I grabbed a blue oversized hoodie and gray sweatpants. I didn't care about how I looked I mean it's not like anyone ever acknowledges me.

I grabbed my bag and put my hood on then left for school hoping I wasn't going to see Clay until the end of school, I didn't even want to see him after school but I knew that it didn't matter and I'm going to see him.

Nick did ask if I wanted to walk to school with him but I just didn't answer I didn't want to talk, I shut down my phone and put it in my pocket. I was arriving to school and I saw Sapnap at the front of school, I ran past him and luckily he didn't notice me.

I just went on with my day ignoring everyone, Sapnap tried to call me at lunch, I didn't answer.
After this I have my last class...
I thought about it for a minute... "SHIT" I covered the mouth when I realized that I said that out loud. "George, watch your language, this will be a warning next time you do that, detention." I sighed "yes ma'am"

shitttt I have class with Sapnap next period I'm not going to be able to avoid him now I groaned.

(I'm listening to helium while writing this POG)

The bell rung and it was time to go to my last class... I stood in front of the doorway, I walked in and hoped that Nick wasn't going to talk to me, although I knew he was because that's the type of person he is..

I sat down in my seat there was a minute until the class started. I closed my eyes Please be late please be late but of course I opened my eyes and made eye contact with Nick before he walked in.

"GEORGE" he yelled, he walked in and grabbed my arm taking me outside the classroom.
"GEORGEEEE WHY HAVEN'T YOU ANSWERED ME" he yelled but not in an angry tone more like a worried tone.
"are you okay?"

"I'm fine!" I said with a smile "my phone is dead I forgot to charge it that's why" I said smiling with a giggle.

I'm far away from being okay Nick looked at me laughing
"your so dumb how do you forget to charge your phone" he sighed "okay well let's just get to class" he was about to start walking away
"wait Sapnap!"
"Yeah?"

"I'm not going to be able to walk with you home today, I have after school plans."

"Oh okay, let's go to class now" he smiled

(thats what I like came on and it scared me half to death cause my volume was at the highest)

I spaced out the whole time in class, even if I wanted to I wouldn't be able to focus because my mind had been thinking about the drea- nightmares. The bell rung and it was time to go home...

I walked to the front of school and turned my phone on and scrolled through Instagram for about five minutes until I heard someone walk up to me. "Hey.." I looked up and saw Clay there with a smile, if I'm honest he has the brightest smile I've ever seen thats probably the main reason I blush whenever I see him.

"U-Uhh hey" I tried to not think of my nightmare but whenever I look at him it's all I see.
"Shall we go?" He asked.
"Y-yea" I smiled but I didn't look him in the eyes I just couldn't bring myself to do that..