There You Are, The Light to my Darkness...

Chapter Five

(Go listen to roadtrip....NOW)

As I walked into my house I saw my mom staring at me.
"Sooooo George who's your new friend"

"He's just transferred to the school and I had to show him around"

"Mhmm okay well goodnight George" she smirked

I rolled my eyes "goodnight mom"

I walked to my room and sat on my bed hugging my pillow while thinking about what happened that night.

Clay doesn't find me annoying? Or maybe he does? Maybe he is just hiding the truth to make me feel better ugh I don't know anymore
I slammed my head into the pillow "Ughhhhh now he knows I'm an idiot god why did I ever agree to him coming here"

I started to doze off to sleep and woke up in the same field as before. But this time it was... different everything seemed brighter and more calming, if this oasis was real I'd never leave.

I stood up and walked around looking at the flowers, the river, walking through the trees, eventually I stumbled into a cabin, the doors open. I walked in it had nice furniture as I walked into the living room I saw Clay there sitting on the couch.

"Ah so that's where you are" I was scared and nervous because of the past times I saw Clay.

"Hello Georgie" he said with a calming tone.

"Uhhh Clay?"

He got up and walked to me making me walk backwards until I landed into the wall. He pinned me to the wall with my arms above my head, he took of his mask staring into my eyes with the look of desire and lust.

"Can I kiss you?" He said with a pleading look, he looked almost like a puppy wanting its food.

"I- I s-sure" I didn't know how to react or what to say,
He was leaning in and was and inch away from my face, noses touching, his hot breath against my face made me blush even more, and just as his lips grazed mine...

I woke up

I sat up AHH were we going to actually kiss? just the thought of that gave me butterflies in my stomach why am I dreaming of kissing Clay, I don't know what I'd do if we did kiss in real life or the dream.
I looked at my clock and it read 6:00am well school starts at seven so I have time to spare.

I grabbed my laptop from desk and searched on google "why do I dream of kissing someone I just met?"
I read the screen as I clicked enter
"A dream about a kiss can symbolize passion, desire, deceit, respect, loyalty, and many other feelings." The results left me shocked but to be sure I also searched "why do I get butterflies in my stomach when I think of my friend?"
The results... well let's just say when I saw them I knew my answer
"It's a stomach flip that can only occur when you're very attracted to and enticed by another person."

I finally knew what was happening to me "I'm in love with Clay..." after a moment I realized exactly what that meant. "WHAT?!?, BUT HES A GUY... AND IM A GUY, SO HOW COULD I BE IN LOVE WITH HIM" I yelled but not too loud that my mom would hear. Okay am I gay? Or maybe bi? This is confusing, I'm just going to think about this later before I get lost in my thoughts.

I was getting up to get ready for school.
School...
I'm gonna see Clay at school...
you know maybe I'll just ignore him... yea I'll just ignore him.

I said goodbye too my mom and walked to school I wanted to be by myself so I could listen to music...

I walked into the school and saw Clay with... Nick? Why are they together?
I was staring for what seemed like forever until I saw Clay make eye contact with me.
His gaze seemed so welcoming and warm but I couldn't handle it and I couldn't hide my blush so I ran...