a week ago you said to me do you believe i'll never be too far?
if your lost just look for me you'll find me in the region of the summer stars
the fact that we can sit right here and say goodbye means we already won
a necessity for apologies between you and me baby there is none
september 1 2021
"uh love, what is this."
we finally got to our destination, i could tell he thought he did something but all he did was bring me to a pumpkin patch. sweet and stuff but halloween is next month and he really did throw me off we the whole one direction thing. i guess we have never been here though if thats what he meant by 'to places that we've never been'.
"it's a pumpkin patch because you're my pumpkin" he nudged me with his elbow a bit
thats right, i forgot
that gross pumpkin baby stuff
this lovey dovey nickname shit was never gonna grow on me so i've come to terms with that, then again calling me pumpkin was still kind of corny and strange. it still makes me think he just wants to take out my guts and stuff me with a candle just to scream, 'happy halloween pattys gonna burn her insides and die!' i missed school for this. geez i do too much for this boy. i am still failing on my school over boys plan.
"lets carve each others faces into pumpkins" jason said abruptly
wow so cute
i kind of ignored him because i realized he'd probably carve some dumb witch looking thing to make fun of me, clearly out of love. whatever this love was
"i don't know love you threw me off with the whole places we've never been thing," i clarified that for him so that he wouldn't stare at me LIKE THAT anymore. ahrejioge it was terrifying. not gonna lie i also tried to make him feel bad for having me skip school, but if there was anything to feel bad for i know jason wouldnt care about that.
he was trying though and i knew that, i appreciated everything he did for me so far but i think he was trying too hard. besides all of that, the autumn breeze felt perfect, i enjoyed that about whatever messed up leaving school date this was. if it was a date. i looked back up and a speechless jason, he was mesmerized by the wind too. it was so relaxing
he grabbed the nearest pumpkin that was next to him and sat down with it, he placed it on his lap. he looked up at me and then tripped me. he kinda put his hand in my knee to make me fall down, i knew he wanted to me to sit next to him but it could've been done in a less painful way. i couldve broke my spine sir
"hey wouldn't it be cute if we had an i love you sign"
hate that word
im also hating how random and impulsive he's being right now. that was really hypocritical of me though.
"i know you hate it so, how about the middle finger?"
he read my mind
i distracted myself a bit, or i tried to, i wanted to make it obvious that i didn't love him even though i did.
"i guess we could do that," i stuck up the middle finger straight into his face, "so cute, i feel the love all around me" i got his attention with that. sarcasm is always the way to go when you don't feel like showing any dumbass emotions.
emotions. gross
he stuck the middle finger back at me. it was so hard to explain the sight i was taking in, he was laid out on his two palms kind of streched out. his one leg was crossed and his hair was being blown by the wind, it was the puffy hair, he has cute hair. his skin was brightened by the sun since it was still out, hasnt set yet, and his smile. his dorky smile was plastered across his place. i didn't realize how long i was staring at him before he nudged me and started to laugh at me. rude. i was being nice to you in my head.
