july 2 2022
"this button makes it start, like when you click the button the car turns on." jason stated
he's been teaching me about cars for the past hour as if i'd copy him and drive illegally too, i could easily wait til i'm 16 i'm not that impatient. either way, he's talking in very specific detail about every single button, i know i can be a little stupid sometimes but i probably know how to work a car. it was amusing though i have to admit, he seemed really happy talking about it. when he's happy, i'm happy.
"oh look at this pumpkin magnet i added next to this one button, this button turns the butt heaters on or whatever you feel like calling them. they're nice when i sleep."
perfect. he puts the pumpkin next to the butt heaters.
i'm glad i remind him of something... anyways
he continued to show me how to turn on the car, turn it off, run the car, how to start driving it with the gas and brakes. he kept going with no hurry before i stopped him.
"watch, the reason i love this car is because you don't need to use keys to start it, I need them inside the car but i don't need to insert them anywhere. watch."
i watched as he clicked the start button he's been going on and on about, the car starting revving up and I mean. i totally expected that but i made it seem like i didn't like the amazing, spectacular, incredible girlfriend i am.
just kidding
"i know how a car works baby, you click the button, put your foot on the gas your other f-"
"did you call me baby?" he paused then questioned me
i hadn't realized until after that i did call him a nickname, i called him baby. i've never called anyone baby before i don't really know where that came from, not like i had anyone to call baby, i just know it came out of no where and i'm not sure if i regret it or not, i'm leaning towards regretting it now. i don't want him to get used to it
baby. baby. why baby? why the hell did my brain pick baby that's so common, why did i choose baby? i hate that i hate it i hate it so much.
i've never liked the idea of nicknames in the first place, it belt like a bullet went through and back in my soul when he hit me with the 'pumpkin' thing, even before when he randomly called me 'love' i felt like melting down into a puddle and evaporating forever. i eventually got used to it, then i eventually started to love it and now i don't like it when he calls me anything but pumpkin or love. also pumpkin became our special little thing.
but baby, baby wait. dont you call him babyyyyyyyy, we're not talking latellyyyyyyyy, don't you call him what you used to call meeeeeeee. sorry
no i'm not
"i like that." jason murmured from behind my stupid thoughts
baby.
ok
"so back to the car, did you know this button makes the window shield flyer things clean the window so i can see the cars?" he had a spark in his eyes that i didn't feel like shutting down so i kind of just nodded along. you learn to do that i guess, i had talked to niall about it and he told me it's normal in relationships to start just going along. at first i hated the idea and always wanted control but then i realized when you put your heart into something it kind of blocks your brain. that's what niall told me atleast. i usually trust niall with my relationship anyways.
niall is like some kind of encyclopedia when it comes to relationships, when him and pascale started dating i always asked how it was like. if it was fun, harmful, happy, sad. he gave me such detailed advice at the time that i didn't know i'd ever need. not to mention they started dating that same year too. the same year i met jason. but i still didn't know i'd ever need it especially that soon.
