letters

To the girl that used to be my best friend

I love how you said it would be me and you forever. You left me but I came back for you. I bought you that plane ticket but you never even gave me a thank you. All I wanted was to see your face and for you to come running into my arms. We were going to have that perfect love story fairytale kiss. The long distance couple that ran across the airport for each other, but sadly that never happened. Then years later have passed you got pregnant and wanted to keep the baby then minutes later you didn't want him. I would of took that kid in a heart beat no questions asked, but yet all of a sudden you wanted your kid back. You went back to the boy whose constantly breaking your heart, but you run to him with open arms. Ready for his sweet and painful embrace. I sit here waiting for it all to go away, for you to come running back to me telling me you were wrong, but that day will never come. I wait and I wait but instead I get texts from him asking me if I'm down to fuck. 

You know I'm such a good friend so I come to you with that information just for you to lie to my face. Telling me you knew nothing about it but all along you did. Your feeding him information while lying to my face. So much for not keeping secrets but that's ok I have secrets of my own. I wanna be with you so bad. I fucked up when I let you go but that ones on me so its not your fault. Nothing ever seems to be your fault and that's okay your allowed to see the world your way. Keep wearing your rose colored glasses but one day you'll see and maybe just maybe I won't be there for you to come running to when you realize the truth. I love you but I'm tired of being used.