Internship(mafia)

Author Note/ Chapter 10

A/N: Hey guys so there was some confusion as to the way I left the last chapter, so I'm going to explain that now. I thought it would be a fun joke and also a test as to see how many people read the author notes. If you read it I'm sure you will understand that it in fact was a trick and that there will be more to this book. 

This book is only starting guys, so keep reading and hope you guys enjoy!

❗❗SENSITIVE CONTENT! THIS IS YOUR WARNING. THIS CHAPTER MAY TRIGGER SOME PEOPLE❗❗

Lana's P.O.V

*Last night*

I left the dining room and made my way to the bathroom in my room. The voice in my head encouraging me to do so, telling me to finish it. Luring me into the bathroom , towards the medicine cabinet where 4 full Advil bottles are. Convincing me it's the only solution. 

I can normally block it out but now it's 10 times more convincing, and reasonable. 

I pick up one of the bottles and took the cup used to wash my mouth out filled it with water and poured a good few pills onto my hand. Threw them in my mouth and swallowed them with the aid of the water.  I winced as they went down knowing in the near future it will be over. 

I'm coming Mom, I'll finally meet you as you" 

I poured more onto my hand and proceeded to do the same thing again. And again and again. Right up until I had two bottles gone. Hoping it was enough I drop to the floor and cry. I bawled my eyes out like it was going to help. It's over now and I'm going to be with Mom in a few minutes. We can live happily ever after. In heaven where we will stay for eternity. 

My vision started to go blurry and it started to go white. I felt myself shake and my mouth foamed up. I was now shaking violently and I could barley see anything. 

"Lana?!! Are you okay?! I'm coming in!" I heard Jonah and someone else behind the bathroom door. All of a sudden the door is burst open and Sergio runs in Jonah freezes at the door and just before my vision goes fully white I see Jonah. His face shocked and I saw his body fall to the floor as my eyes roll to the back of my head and then I'm in the meadow, with the same lady the guys told me in Mom. 

I run to her finally recognising her as my real mother. I jump into her arms and she catches me as I jump and hugs me. She looks down to me and says "Sweetie why are you here? Your far to young to be here" She said with a very sad face. I just replied "Mom, I couldn't stay there, the pressure, the feeling of invisibility, I don't fit in." 

"Oh Hun, of course you don't fit in, YOUR A ROMERO!" She said slightly laughing. "We don't fit in, we stand out, we are the centre of attention or as you feel, invisible. We will be nothing or everything. And you my dear, are everything in your brothers lives right now. Believe me, I'm a ghost I see everything that happens in all of your lives Lana. They may not show it but you are defiantly the princess I knew you would be before I left."  I had a slight tear in my eye but I didn't dare let it fall. Mum continued "Lana, I think it's time you go back now. You can fight or give up, but please know that your brothers won't be able to have you die twice. Soon enough they will be here too if you don't go back Lana." She said in a sad tone, I knew she knows what she is talking about but something in me doesn't want to listen to her, because if I do I will have to suffer again. 

"I can see you debating this in your head so let me give you all the facts and you can make your decision off of that ok?" I nodded and she said "Look sweetie, your brothers love you so so much and I know you may not realise it but they do. And here, well it's just me, you have 7 loving brothers there to take care and love you forever where here, you will just be watching and feeling what your brothers are feeling, grief, sadness and most of all empty. Maybe a little angry too. But there you can help then recover and make them feel happy again. Lana, you need to know that they would die for you in a second. And don't beat yourself up over Matteo, he probably loves you the most believe me or not." 

"I hate to argue with you Mom and I know I'm being disrespectful but I don't think your right, I think Matteo hates me, he always stares at me scowling and he never talks or acknowledges me unless he's staring." I say a little frustrated thinking about Matteo. 

Mom shakes her head in disagreement but doesn't say anything. She just says "Bambina it's time you decide what your doing, I have to go now I hope you decide right. Goodbye baby" She kissed my forehead and I decide life. I think about coming back. 

I shoot up and gasp for air. I look around and see I'm in a hospital bed, in a private room alone. So much for brothers that love me Mom huh. I lye back down and huff in frustration. I am attached to so many wires and there is a beeping going through the room that sped up as I woke up I'm guessing it's my heart monitor. I sat bored staring at the clock for hours. Doctors come and go all day but no one stayed long and still no sign of my brothers. 

After awhile it turns dark outside and I decide to try and sleep for the night because it doesn't seem like anyone is coming. The first nurse that was here this morning said that she rang my brothers and that there was no answer. But she left a voicemail saying I was awake. They must know but not care enough to come and get me. 

*3 days later* 

Still no fucking sign of them. I guess they forgot about me or something. Not like anyone actually cared for me back at that house. 
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A/N: Hey guys! Sorry I took a little break from writing so I could focus on school but I'm back now and I should be updating more frequent hopefully. Thanks for reading xoxo