𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐅𝐎𝐘𝐒 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋| 𝐃.𝐌

I know you love it when i touch you

Y/N ROWEN POV

I swaddle myself in my own arms for Comfort, crashing on to the floor bringing my knees up to my chest breathing heavy, loud, painful sobbs. My heart really did break into different pieces for different reasons yet they all came under one damaging category.

No one loved me and that I was a fool for thinking someone did or at least learnt how to.

My head battled mixed thoughts and opinions on others and myself. Why did no one stay? Why did I feel like I had to be loved when I knew it was impossible?

I had an opportunity to end that dispute with Draco by doing an easy task, opening the door. I couldn't bring myself to do it, what he said no matter how true I thought it was, was not okay.

Staying by the door pinning my ear against the wood, i assumed I heard a voice a deep familiar one. I replayed the events that happened over and over in mind each time growing more agonising, I placed my palm on the door in hope Draco might still be there and that he didn't leave like everybody else, that he was different.

He's the one that made me attached to him, he's the one who did this to me! He can't just leave.

I broke down again leaning my head on the door scratching at the wood like a puppy wanting and waiting it's owner to come back.

Draco Owned my heart.

I thought I owned his.

DRACO MALFOY POV

I wanted to abandoned y/n, leave her so she would see that not letting me back inside was a mistake That she was the one that did this, not me.

But I was the one at fault to stubborn to admit it, I was the one to make that nasty comment about her parents, I was the one that kept abusing her.

Rotating back round in regret for deserting her, I stood out side her door frozen, clueless in what to do. I could still clearly listen out to her crying on the opposite end of the door, I slid down to the ground against her door since it was the closest thing I could get to be with her.

Raising my palms up to the wood  I felt a tingling feeling of suffering float through me, y/n suffering. I leant my head on the door in defeat whispering, "I love y/n, I should have told you sooner."

The handle began to move, I leapt up hiding myself behind a corner of a wall. The door finally opened whilst I was hidden away from her. Y/n looked distraught, her eyes were swollen red stained in affliction, arms were covering her beautiful stomach and she was decorated in red rashes.

What have I done to this precious girl.

Everything about her still was so luring, tempted me to run out of from hiding to embrace her in my arms and tell her how sorry I am, to tell her how much I love her and to tell her no matter what happens she will always be loved by me.

However, I knew I couldn't I would deteriorate her more I couldn't do that to her, not again.

Y/N ROWEN POV

Was it paranoia? was it my imagination? Was Draco outside of my door waiting for me? I gripped onto the handle to pull myself up as I didn't have the motivation to do it myself. An uninhabited discern prowled its way in that he wasn't there, portraying to me that I was connected with Draco, I was nothing without him and that I never actually had him.

Shutting the door in disappointment, I crumbled onto my bed in misery, everybody got a taste or chance at love and I didn't I was envious of anybody that had experienced it I was jealous.

I rolled restlessly on the bed in frustration crying to myself in free therapy, a gash of pain stabbed the underside of my wrist it was occurring again and Draco wasn't here to help me.