Kokichis pov
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I run into my room and lock my Door I immediately jump on my bed and hide under my covers. I start to feel tears well up in my eyes, "why, why me why did I have to get targeted" I mumble under my breath I start to cry and I couldn't wipe the tears no matter how much I tries they wouldn't stop coming. I was going to lay there for the next few hours trying to drift asleep but instead I decided to get up and do something, I ended up drawing, each one of my 'friends' well from my perspective they were I doubt I was their friend..ANYWAY so yeah I drew them it wasn't the best it was really sloppy and not realistic and you probably couldn't tell who was who. After I finished I ended up starring at them, I sighed to myself before hearing my doorbell go off. It only went off once so I'm going to assume its kirumi calling me down for dinner, so I open it. It was.....saihara? "Saihara~chan? Why are you here?" "I came to check up on you" "why do you even care about me" I said without thinking, after realizing what I said I quickly tried to shut the Dorr before it getting stopped by shuichis foot, I was at a loss for words I didn't know what to say next, he couldn't lie and if he said the wrong thing he could end up ruining his mask and everything he has. "Kokichi?" he said opening the door to see me staring at him "u-umm ouma?" he said snapping me out of my thoughts "huh? Oh yes sorry I spaced out" did I just say sorry dammit curse you lying gas "um are you ok you've been staring at me for a while?" "O-oh sorry I spaced out" I mentally curse at myself for stuttering "alright but in all seriousness are you ok?" "No" I realize what I said then pushed shuichi away from the door frame and shut my door locking it. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck what was I thinking I'm an itiot ughhh I'm worse than Kaito, I pace around my room nervously. Atua what am I supposed to do, shuichi knows I'm not ok and then he's gonna tell everyone and then they will laugh at me and tell me I'm weak and I'm gonna get bullied worse than I already am people will avoid me because I'm A disgusting freak. No one would even care if I died. I jump on my bed hoping that I would fall asleep immediately. It didn't work I hate insomnia.(honestly a mood) I go into my bathroom to take a bath to calm me down, "god I wish I could lie, how am I supposed to live without lying I'm gonna get bombarded with questions and I can't shut myself up every time. Why can't I just say 'oh I'm perfectly fine!' Wait- did I just. I like this killing game? OH MY GOD I JUST LIED" does water wash of the effects? I think maybe steam might. I get out of the bath and open the bathroom door letting the steam out, "at least ill be able to lie in my room" I hear gentle knocking on my door, I check the time to see it was around 6pm basically dinner. I had skipped all of the other meals so I was quite hungry but I absolutely did not wanna leave my room. Either way I opened the door, and as I half expected it was kirumi. "Hi mom, what do you need?" she slightly smiled and then spike in a soothing voice "it is time for dinner and you must come cause you have eaten nothing else today" dear atua she sounded like a mother "but people will bombard me with questions and I can't keep my mouth shut for that long" I said a bit angry "I'm so very sorry but you must go, you need to eat" "ughh fine ill go" I said quite annoyed that o have to leave my room.
I walk out of my room to find no one though everyone's probably at the dining hall already. I make it to the dining hall and was about to step inside with kirumi right beside me, but I hesitated I couldn't open the door.
"Ouma? Is everything alright" kirumi said looking at me. "How am I alright I can't lie people are gonna ask me questions and I can't avoid all of them and if they found out why I lie or what I'm actually like I'm gonna get bullied and everyone will hate me more and ill just be that weak nerd of the class and ill be given death threats and no one will care" and just like that I broke down in front of kirumi spilling everything letting wall of lies crumble until it was nothing but ashes.
I ended up crying so hard I passed out and I woke up in, my room? kirumi must've carried me here. I sigh before getting up and going to the bathroom to brush my hair. Everything.e I try to brush it down it just keeps going back up, it makes me frustrated why can't it just go down! I can brush it and put gel in it for our and yet it sticks out like the twigs on a snowman atua dammit.
I go to my room and flop on my bed. I suddenly hear light knocking, "Come in the doors unlocked!" The person outside the door entered, my head was flopped on the bed so I didn't see who, well until they spoke of course. "Umm, I'm really sorry for the way I treated you, it wasn't fair" the mumbled the last part though I still headed it (A/N I can't mr lover man just came on) when I heard the and what came out of it I was absolutely shocked
"H-HIMIKO?!" my yelling caused her to flinch "Nyeh?! Did you not know I was here?" Oh she probably thought I knew I was coming "no I couldn't see you" "oh" in the distance we heard a voice "himikooooo whered you goooo" "nyeh? Oh that's tenko I have to go ill come back tomorrow" "um oh bye ilk see you tomorrow"
She left my room closing the door behind her and like that, silence. I hadn't eaten today, I was starving but that wasn't concerning me it felt as if, I was used to it? But I don't remember anything like starving happening so I just brushed it off.
I couldn't sleep have slept for quite a bit already, so I just laid in my bed until sleep eventually got me and I drifted off
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A/N I love oumeno bropt with all my heart its so cute and wholesome and also kokichi and kirumi mom and son relationship it makes Me happy
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