Heart beat

11 (The sooner the better)

Jungkook pov

As I entred Jin's room I saw Tae putting his head on the bed while holding Jin's hand and crying. I swallowed and went near.

"Tae!" He shift his head. His eyes were puffy and red.
"Uncle Chanyeol...called you!"
"I want to be with Jin. He will be alone if I leave him."
"I am with him. Uncle didn't look good." He looked at Jin and then me.

"Take care of him." I smiled and nodded.
I sat on his place as he went out. I looked at Jin. His red plump lips were now without colour. His face was white. I caressed his face.
"Even....you are like..... this you are... the most beautiful!" I hold his hand and kissed it.

"Baby! Please.... don't leave me. I will do whatever for you. I will do everything in my life to save you just fight....alittle more." I closed my eyes.
"The time we were laying on the grasses....in the park.....and you kissed me. Jin I was willing.... to have you. Now you... are mine. Please don't ban yourself from me. Please don't take yourself from me. I will die if something happen to you." I let the tears I was suppressing fall. I cried my heart out. No he must not leave!

Taehyung pov

I looked at dad who was caressing appa's face who was still sleeping.
"Dad!" He looked at me and sighed.
"Go out I will come now." I nodded and went out of the room.

After seconds he came out.
"Come with me." I nodded.

We then went to the hospital yard.
He looked at me and caressed my face.
"Does it hurt son?" I looked at him and bit my bottom lip.
"The pain....in my heart....hurts more." He hold me and tapped my back.
"I am sorry!" He whispered.
"No it is...not cause you slapped me. I am mad at you cause.....you are giving up. Why? Jin will get better. You must not give up." I wiped my tears. I must be strong. Cause of Jin. He will get well again. Yeah! Jin will be well again.

He step back.
"Taehyung!"
"Yes?"
"Look at me." I shift my head and looked at him.
"Yes Jin is your brother but....I want you to know....he is my son. The one who gave him his being is me. The one who he has his blood is me. The one who he has his soul is me. The one who gave his being is me." He said angrily and pointed to himself.

"He is here from my soul from my blood. It fucking hurts...as my son....I want you understand....when I ask the doctor....how much time he has....It hurts 10 times more than you for me." I looked at him who was crying and bitting his botyom lip.

"Dad!"
"But as much as I love him breathe next to me....I want....I want he breathes without pain without limits...not live like this. WITH PAIN!"
"Dad!"
"It hurts so much but....maybe this is....better for him. At least his pains will stop. I cannot see him in pain anymore." He said and then went. I know how hard for him to say more to accept this.

"I wish it was all a nightmare. Can I close my eyes and open it to see this nightmare is gone?" I put my palms on my face.
"Please! Be ok!"

Baekhyun pov

I opened my eyes. Jin my Jin!
"J...Jin!"
"You are awake sweetheart?" I looked at Chanyeol. He looked pale! His eyes were puffy and red and the sign of tears were still on his cheeks.
"Ch...chan!"
"Jin is still sleeping. His doctor said he will wake up soon." I swallowed.

"I...afraid to think....what will happen!" I burst into tears.
"Baby!"
"Why this is happening to me? My...Tae always....wanted a little brother and when I got pregnant I was as happy as hell. He was.... a bless to our life. He was very.... quite even I was pregnant with him. I felt.... him. Chan....his soul and mine was one...for 9 months. He was.... with me. In my.... soul! What will happen to my baby?" I hit my chest my heart aches. The pain is the worst pain.

Chanyeol hold me and kissed my head.
"Baekhyun baby! Please don't cry!"
"HOW? My baby is....is....kinda dying. How can I stop crying?"

My Jin! What will happen to him? I always am thinking about a day he will leave us but....now....he is in the condition....no I cannot let go of my son.
"No no! Jin will be next to me! He won't leave me."

Taehyung pov

"Do the surgery you said." I told the doctor.
"Tae Jin's body is to-"
"You said there is a surgery which can save my brother till you find a transplant. Now do it! Can't you see he is about to die? Huh?" He closed his eyes and sighed.

"Taehyung! Right now the only thing we can do is to wait. I don't know maybe his body gets stronger and we can do the surgery and then the transplant. More his kidney! He has a serious problem in that. Believe me I am looking at all of the ways but in each way there is an obstacle. The only thing is he must be lucky to find a transplant." I closed my eyes. My brother! What will happen to him?

"What if he becomes stronger huh?"
"What?"
"If his body becomes stronger you will do the surgery yeah?"
"We will check him but it is not that easy don't forget he has just two mo-"
"Don't say that! You are not a predictor. I will do my best for Jin to see he is strong again." He sighed but then nodded.

"Tae!" I looked at him.
"Sometimes letting go of something is better!"
"What do you mean?" He came to me and hold both of my hands.
"You are like my son so Jin! Look your brother is in pain right now. The doctors will feel pain along with their patients but sometimes you must give up. Not cause you are exhusted. Cause it is better for him. Tae Jin is tired. Let him rest." I swallowed.

"You are telling me...let my brother die?"
"Taehyung!"
"No! Never! Jin will always be next to me. I will die if something happen to me. I prefer to die but Jin be alive."

Jin pov

I opened my eyes. Pain! It is the feeling I have right now.
"Jin!" I turned right and saw Tae.
"T..Ta...Tae!" He caressed my face and kissed my forehead.

"Jin baby!" I looked at Jungkook who was beside him.
"Jung...kook!"
"Let me go and call the doctor. I will tell uncle Chanyeol and Baekhyun too." He quickly ran out. I looked at Taehyung who was hodling my hand.
"D...don't...c...cry!" He wiped his tears.

"Ah! What happened to my eyes? I guess something got inside there." I smiled. I know you were crying for me. Your eyes tell.
"Do you have pain?" How can I say yes and break his heart? How can say no whne my whole body is in a bad pain?

"A...li...ttle!"
"Dad and appa were worry. They will be so happy to see you." I smiled.
"Jin be strong ok? The doctor told me you will be well again but you need to get strong again. I will always be with you just get your strength back. Ok?" He kissed my hand.

I know the doctor has told him opposite of the things he is saying. Taehyung I am sorry! As much as I love to be with you but my body is betraying me.
"Taehyung!"
"Yes?"
"I....love...you! So...much!" He smiled.
"I love you more! Like this." He then opened his arms like our childhood. I remember everytime he would do this I would get happy cause thought it is alot. But Tae loves me way more than this.

I wish I could fight! But.... maybe it is better everything finish. The sooner the better!

Heyyyyy! Did you like it? For the ones who asked the story has a sad ending. I am really really sorry for the amount of sadness and if the story made you cry! But as I said as chapters goes it'll get more painful. I just can say I am sorry. Hope you enjoy!😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉