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Liz

Everything was so crazy in my mind, what was going on? I cant like Avan. Never, its never gonna happen.

I forgot what Ari had told me over the phone. The whole time on call, i was pacing around my bedroom and telling myself "this can't be happening." over and over.
I believe she told me something along the lines of, "Liz! have you forgotten all the rude, mean things he says about you?? What will happen now! ..What if he doesn't like you.. Of course he doesn't like you, he calls you horrible names. But, then thats just an unrequited love. You can't like Avan! it will make- -"

Yeah. Remembering that right mow isn't helpful.

I just needed to take a deep breath, and think everything through.. Okay..

Seriously? Avan? couldn't have been i dont know, Matt or Leon. They, i can actually tolerate, but noooo. It just haaad to be that bitch. Maybe i should tell him, or talk to him.. no. That would be practically admitting guilt.

I brushed my fingers through my tangly hair and flicked away the loose hairs that came out onto the floor.
I picked up my phone and scrolled through the internet and searched up "what the hell is wrong with me" but as usual, it came up with useless answers.

Not that the question was even meant to be answered anyways.

Stressed, i hopped into bed and covered myself with my white sheets and sat there blanketed with a frown on my face.
I buried myself into the warmth of the blanket after regretting every decision i have ever made.

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I woke up at about 3am not being able to sleep; too much was on my mind. I leaned over to check the bedside table clock then plopped myself back down to rub my dusty eyes. They were aching and were desperately begging to be shut, but i just couldn't make myself sleep, sleep would make not be able to think about the importance of this.

I slouched up and looked around the dark room, i spotted my camera sitting on a storage box. I got up and shivered from the coldness. Quickly, i tiptoed to the camera and picked it up, the camcorder also caught my eye so i took it as well. i walked back to the bed and climbed in it. I sat crossed-legged on the mattress and clicked through the pictures on the camera, i saw the more recent ones. The one i secretly
took on set of Victorious , the one of Ari, Leon, Matt and i, and the photos i took of the sky yesterday.
I saw the back of Avan's head in one of the photos and clicked through some more pictures until i stopped at a specific one.

The most special out of all of them.

A picture of Avan's side profile, his hair was blowing in the warm breeze and the sky was adding an amazing view. He was smiling, losing himself to the beautiful sky and that was when i snapped a photo of him. I couldn't help myself..

I grinned as i studied the picture in the small screen of the camera.

Seriously Liz? You cannot. And i mean, cannot! Fall for that mess of a person.

I shut my eyes tightly, and clenched my jaw. All i could think about was Avan, Avan, Avan. His name, a mantra on my mind, i wanted to stop thinking about him and get rid of the butterflies in my stomach.
I clicked off the camera and tossed it onto the end of my bed. I looked over the the small camcorder and picked it up, i turned it on and smiled as i saw a video that i forgot i took yesterday. I pressed the play button and watched.