Poetry

Listen

Yes, I push people away, but do you know why?

I am a monster, okay?

I'm silent some days and don't talk about my feelings

Because I was raised a woman

And in a world like this

Women are taught that talking about themselves

In any way

Is selfish and bragging

I'm trying to protect you

And defend you

And keep you from getting hurt

Don't tell me I play victim 

When I'm doing this for you

It's not my fault I have these disorders

It's not my fault I have trauma

I'm just being the father figure you need

And if I'm going to be that

I need time to myself some days

I'm not a miracle maker

I can't fix everything

But I'm trying