Dear, SAGM (Taglish BL)

Episode 1.3

Claire's PoV:

Watching my little brother wasted at the bar makes me wanna burst in laugh. Sino ba Kase ang gustong magpakasal nang 21 palang. Kundi ba naman Tatanga-tanga, iniwan Tuloy. I can't blame Erich, maybe she's not yet ready, but that doesn't mean she have to leave. She could have stay and get married when she's ready, they would be a perfect couple. Well, they Fuck it up,  the perfect picture. Haha AKo nga walang live life Eh, handa na akong masaktan, yung mangiiwan nalang ang kulang.

Growing up with my brothers is fun, I bullied them everytime. They both responsible and very simple. Neji is so delicatea and smart. Eyes on the book everytime. My Lil brother Eije well he's fine. He know what he wants in life. Want to settle in country side and live there. Me?  I'm the princess of the family. Si Kuya Neji nauuna PAng umiyak kapag inaaway ko si Eiji, lagi kase kaming nagtatalo ni Eiji. At Paborito ko siyang pikunin. Si Neji imbis na umawat, ay nagsusumbong Kay Mom at Dad. Tulo uhog PA. I'm the life of the party. I remember nung Pinatapon AKo ni Dad sa all girls school at catholic school para tumino at ang resulta, I dated girls hahha. So, Nakicked out ako. I met Sloan, my very bestfriend now. This bitch  knows everything about me,  she's like my sister. I grew up alone, hunger for attention from my parents. So I became rebellious and lately I see the reason why I didn'tgave me much attention. Kuya Neji is too delicate, innocent and such a crybaby while Eiji masyadong padalos dalos sa mga desisyon.

I'm a shadow of my brothers, they always look cool and dumb at the same time. Popular in school, so I created my own name. I became the rock princess of the campus. Wherever I go,  they know my names. They love me. I don't blame them. I much cooler than my brothers now. What a shame.

I never been Inlove. I wonder what it feels like?  To have someone...  Someone who kiss your forehead in the morning, smiling. Ughhhhhhhh fucking gross. I'm hopeless romantic. Well maraming nagkakagusto sakin, the thing is. They're too normal, too normal for me.

I thought it's impossible, that this time will never gonna happen. The first time I saw him. I feel like there's a volcano erupting in my chest, and the voice... Fuck.

"Can you believe this bitch! " tawa ni Sloan Habang kumakain. Nakayuko akO sa kahihiyan. She's with her girlfriend Alice. Yeah,  Sloan is bisexual like me. We dated a lot of guys, and when she met Alice. Yun LAng ung nagtagal na relasyon. AKo Wala. Hahaha. Kinacut off ko Agad kapag Tatanga tanga lol. "Instead of giving her order, she gave him her number. Hahahhahaa what a dumb bitch."  dugtong niya. Sinamaan ko siya nang tingin. Telling her to stop. It's embarrassing. Naiilang akO sa tingin nung waiter. "Shut up, Sloan.... He's looking this way." pamumula ko. I feel mad for feeling this bizarre sensation. It's beautiful and madness and I can't help but to feel it. My hearts want it.

"Oh, so somebody makes our little princess fall Inlove. It's strange don't you think Alice?" Kain niya while teasing me.

I look at him. He's fine... I mean totally fine for me.

Wonder what happened?

So,  I walked in the restaurant, feeling cool like I used to be, like its normal day for me.  I sat down near the window patiently waiting for Sloan and Alice. I'm scrolling to my phone, exhausted from work, checking my schedule. I gave my PA a vacay, she needs it. I got invitation from different parties and stuffs... 

I texted Sloan. "Bitch, where the hell are you? I'm hungry as hell."

"Bitch, order ka na. You know my fave and Alice wants some salad. Malapit na kami. Medyo traffic lang. Be there at 15 minutes."

"Bitch, hurry up, OK amma take the order, Pag hindi kayo dumating dito at exactly 15 minutes kayo magbabayad."

"Call bitch!"

At Sinenyasan ko na ung waiter. He look at my way.

Dug dug dug

As he walking towards me. Oh shit, what the hell is this? He's Dang cute. Napalunok akO nang laway. His hair is pushed back, fine Chinito eyes on his geek chick glass. I sigh. A sigh with the desire to touch his pinkish lips. It's chapped but look hot. About 5'9.  He's around his mid 20's. Nice built bod, wearing his uniform and name tag. Gabe. Gabe is his name. Is it Gabriel?  Finally I  saw my angel. Oh,  I'll make this Shit hell. Devil laugh internally. His footsteps' banging in my mind. It makes me feel  uncomfortable, Kinakabahan ako. All I think is  oh shit how do I look  like?  I wanna hit on him. Fuxk, he's not smiling. He's look is intimidating. Apaka suplado. And now he's standing holding a pen and the paper. Nanginginig ang kamay ko. Nawalan ako nang force hahha. Nanalalambot ako. I awkwardly staring at his face for a minute. He's saying something. I can't hear anything. Then I saw Sloan and Alice na kababa Lang nang kotse mula sa parking.

"Ms?  Ms?  Is everything alright?  I.. I.. Are you alright?" paulit ulit niyang tanong.  That's when I come back to my senses.  Tumango Lang ako. Umupo na sila Sloan sa upuan. But still my eyes is on this damn beautiful creature. "Ma'am may I take your order." magalang niyang tanong. I just nod.

"I'll have Creamy Pasta and Salad for my Boo here." rinig kong sabi ni Sloan. And the next thing is embarrassing. He look at me. And I lost for words. I just what my mind wanted to say.

"You're beautiful.  If you're free let's go out sometimes. That's not an invitation. Mr. Your mine now. I'll make you mine. Here's my phone number . 09********* "

Napatakip nalang ako nang bibig. Kumunot ang noo niya. Napatingin ako kay Sloan at Alice na nabigla sa sinabi ko. At Saka humagalpak nang tawa. "I'm sorry, Ma'm?" may Pag Kainis ang tono nang boses niya. " I said I want a Salmon. And...  Excuse me." takbo ko sa Banyo. Nakatingin lahat sakin. Nakaramdam ako nang hiya for the first time.

Nahihiya akong Umupo Habang Tinatawanan nang dalawa. I laugh bitterly. At Kunwari may kinukutingting sa menu. But he's looking at my way.

Hanggang sa pag-uwi this two biych is teasing me. Mock me. Hinayaan ko nalang. I wonder what he thinks of me. He must be upset. Ughhhhhhhh, I'm such a dumb bitch. Dahil sa Gigil nasabunutan ko si Sloan na tawang tawa parin. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. My phone snooze. Ugh. May appointment AKo Bukas busy si Dad so AKo muna ang haharap sa kasosyo namin. Yael's company.

His face stuck in my head. Ughhhhhnnnn Fuck it. Hinatid ako nang dalawa sa bahay. Agad akong pumasok. Nadatnan ko si Neji and Eiji Habang Nanonood nang Titanic. Patapos na. Ung scene na lumubog na ung titanic. And Dahil weak si Neji. Ayun umiiyak na while Eiji Walaang paki Alam na kumakain nang popcorn  katabi si Manang.  Kaagad akong umakyat na para magpahinga sa kwarto. Rinig ko ang mga pinagsasabi Nila.

"'That Claire?  Unusual. Never seen her down like that before." Kuya Neji.

"I don't  care."  walang ganang Sagot ni Eiji. "No,  I mean kase Pag umuuwi siya, Ikaw Agad ang kukukilin niya, o Kaya pupunta sa kusina at tatambay sa ref. Hmm. Something's off with our sister."

"I don't care... " Eije's sigh. "It's better this way. She's annoying."

Umakyat nalang ako at magshower.

I never felt this way before. I saw his face everywhere. His voice echoing in my head. An electric from my veins through my heart pumping it too loud. Pull yourself together Claire.
Instead I'm thinking kung Kelan ulit kami magkikita. And I feel crazy about it.

To be continued...