Saiki's yellow

Closer (TW)

!!! TW ¡¡¡ please read this with caution as it contains starving/eating disorder and dysmorphic aspects and overwhelming scenes (sorry if I didn't phrase that right).

Saiki~
I woke up the next day. Blinding sun rays gliding through the minuscule gap between my velvety cotton curtains. I sat up and leant back, stretching my aching back. I reached over to my endlessly ticking clock and made a mental note of what the time was. I smile formed on my face. Once again, today I would be able to see him.

I dressed myself in my freshly washed uniform and try look as presentable as possible. But when I looked in the mirror I looked... I looked massive. I looked ugly and horrible. I felt like my stomach was falling out of my trousers. I knew for the best I had to skip breakfast. Everyday was like this: I watched my self get wider and wider! I hate myself.

I left the house feeling nothing but tiredness and self conscious. I was praying for a peaceful journey to school where nobody could see my hideous appearance. But of course I wasn't able to be alone. Why would I think that? Chasing up behind me was Kaidou, Aren and Nendou. I was about to cry and I could feel a heavy tear weighing down my eyelash. I feel my face about to burst with embarrassment. They came charging and let all their weight onto my back. I stubbled to the floor. Everything stopped and continued in slow motion. I attempted to stand up again but my arms were just too weak. Ugh.
"You good there, Saiki?" Kaidou questioned, indicating that he felt concerned. Aren clutched my back in the most threatening grip and yanked me up, almost pulling a limb out of its socket. I struggled to get my feet back to place and I almost stumbled over again. They shared looks, well Kaidou and Aren did, Nendou was just looking at the sky like it was some sought of unseen, ancient artefact. We continued on our hike to school but gradually I trailed behind so eventually I was by my self.

By the time I had got to school, I was way out of breath almost as if I had gone on a whole marathon. I rested on the gate wall for support. As I looked up though, all I could see was the boy of my dreams: Hiroshi Satou. Although he was the most average being on the universe, he stood out in my eyes. We had become acquaintances to friends over the past month. Everything is progress. Abruptly, A pain shot me in the stomach and it gurgled to the point it was uncomfortable.

Hours went by like days, and i was starting to feel nauseous and fatigued. The time had just hit 12:30pm so the bell rang. It pierced my ear drums and it just kept ringing and ringing. I held my head in hope that it would block out the noise. I could myself heavily sweating and my eyes we going indistinct making everything contorted. This never happened. I felt I warm comforting hand make contact with my back I glanced over my shoulder to see that it was... Satou. I felt that time stopped as he put his arm around my shoulder and crouched next to me.
"You taking care of yourself, Saiki?" He whispered to me in a voice that was so soft and curing. He stayed by me while the bustling classroom fleet to lunch.

Satou~
I could feel his spine protrude from his back. His shoulders and rib cage were practically projecting out of him. I-I never expected him to be like this. He definitely needed help. I gave him support and guided him to the cafeteria. He clearly hadn't eaten 3 meals for ages and still hadn't bought lunch. I was properly fed so I donated my lunch to him. Stubbornly, his hand weakly pushed it away, "Saiki, you need to eat." I said trying to force it to him. In that moment, I felt our bond grow...

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! Sorry if this chapter isn't that good... ¡
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