Saiki's yellow

The cubicle (TW)

!!!TW¡¡¡ TW this chapter contains slight panic attack I think and self harm and possibly a tiny bit of body dysmorphia. Read with caution and take care of urself.

Saiki~
He politely opened his ostensibly simple door and hovered his hand in front of him, gesturing me to go first. I giggled subtly under my breath: he was so honourable and such a gentleman. We walked close together, side by side and our arms were grazing each other. Our hands we draped below our hips and occasionally our index fingers would interlock and we would chuckle. He only saw it as a friendship way but for me, he was my everything. He was the light my dull life of darkness and hatred.

We had arrived at our destination aka school. The prison filled with my worst nightmares. I placed my head in my hand and anxiously rubbed my forehead. I was anticipating the day ahead and it didn't look hopeful. After all, the last time I was at school I... I collapsed. Satou put his calm arm around my trembling body. He comforted me as I tried stable myself. I hid my head in my knees and I couldn't stop shaking. He crouched in front of me and placed his warm hands on my tense shoulders, "Hey, hey... it's going to be ok..."

Satou~
Saiki peeped up from his spindly knees at me, while rivers of tears sprinted down his face. I wiped his cheek and smiled. I leaned in for a hug and before I could close my arms around him, he shot him into me, balling his eyes out in my chest. He was still shaking excessively and I was clueless on what to do. I don't know why he was like this. Maybe he was afraid that he would collapse again... Maybe there was something else? Everyone slowly vanished into the school as we camped by a tree. He was still shaking so I refused to let him go inside. We weren't going to be late we were still kinda early. I held him close protectively as if someone was going to attack or steal him.

Saiki~
I leant my light head against his shoulder and took a few deep breaths he put his hand on my cheek and our noses were touching, "There ya are Saiki-" Kaidou announced as him, Aren and Nendou entered the campus of our school.
"ARE YOU TWO GAY??" Nendou practically screamed as me and Satou tore apart.
"N-no were just friends lol. Kusuo just seemed down that's all." My brittle heart almost shattered as he said that. I didn't want us to just be friends. I didn't want to not have him by me.

They continued and soon pedo psychic (Toritsuka), Akechi and my fake girlfriend, Aiura, came through. Aiura glanced at me and winked indicating that she thought that we secretly dating. I rolled my eyes, bitting my tongue, attempting not to giggle. I grabbed Satou's hand and stood up and grinned, "I think we can go inside now,"
"You sure," he said in a tone which reassured me that he would always be there for me. I nodded. We continued to stroll into the school, luckily just about on time. Satou didn't let go of my slender hand so... I didn't either. We separated to our tedious classroom and Aiura ran towards me:
"So... got ya self a boyfriend?" She nudged me and winked cheekily.
"N-NO?! What?! I-" I hesitated, "I mean, no. We're just close friends I guess." I sighed.
"Well YOU seem to like him a lot..."
I blushed heavily, "I-I gotta get to class."
I sped off and I just saw her chuckle behind me. Good grief.

The day went by like a decade and I was starting to feel light headed again. This couldn't be happening again. Timidly, I raised my hand trying to not draw to much attention and begged to go to the toilet. The teacher accepted so I darted out and hid in a cubicle. I obviously didn't need to go I just couldn't take it anymore. I fished thorough my bag attempting to discover a water bottle but instead I found... I found something that I wished I hadn't: a pocket knife. I pulled it out and opened the knife. I stared at the glistening tip and let out a deep sigh. I let a thin stream of tears and let the knife pierce my skin and I made a slit. I continued and did this over and over again. It was like a drug I couldn't stop. It felt like it solved everything but when I stopped I felt worse. I hesitated as I heard someone enter the toilets. My heart raced so I shoved the knife into my bag and covered my arm. It wouldn't stop bleeding. Agh! I wrapped it in tissue as well as I could and flushed the toilet to make it seem like I went. I lingered in the cubicle until I could hear them lock the door. I left and leaned on the sink and stared at myself. Why did I look like this? I pretend to wash my hands and lightly jogged back to class. But of course it wasn't that simple. Someone called my name and I looked behind me to see-

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