Ask Jane the Killer

The True Me.

Hello everyone. I want to let you know something. I want all of you to do this, I want to start something. Ignite a new age where everyone is brave enough to be themselves. I am going to tell you the true me, and I hope you'll share the true you in return. Nothing's holding us back anymore. It's time we build a new society where everyone themselves. So I encourage you all to spread this movement with me.

Together, we can build a better future.

I want you all to know a little about me.

I'm schizophrenic. I'm dark and depressing. I'm dark and depressed. I hate myself. I've cut myself. I've even considered killing myself. I am a ticking time bomb in the midst of a hurricane, and everyone gets caught in my mayhem. I'm clutzy. I'm stupid at times. I can even come off as inconsiderate. I care too much about people and I can never word my emotions just right. I'm immune to the cold and always have been and, many say it's because I'm cold at heart. I can go from a secluded introvert to a rambunctious extrovert like ninety to nothing. I always make the people I love feel bad and the people I hate feel extremely hated. I like punk rock and classical. I try to play the piano, but I can't. Same thing with singing. I have deep thoughts about psychological things but lack a good common sense. I'm always too sure of myself and am usually wrong. I'm socially awkward and I'm surprised you've stuck up with me this long. I've been told I'm an amazing poet and artist. I'm an expert at lies and faking smiles. I hate myself, but love nearly everyone else. I envy the teenage girls who are normal, but I still wouldn't want my life any other way. I tend to over exaggerate but this is all exact. I've been defined as goth and emo, and the last part is kind of true. I wear black a lot. Pink too. Pink is my least favorite color and purple is my favorite. The past year has been the best year of my life. I only started watching anime because of a lie I once told. I pretend to be someone I'm not a lot. I lie to everyone and pretend I'm fine when they can clearly see I'm not. My moms even yelled at me for that last one. My dad tries his best but he's not good at his job as a father. I love him none the less. My mother is the best mother I've ever had and I love her as well, but have a hard time showing it. My favorite food changes weekly, and at the moment it's fries from McDonald's. I role play all the time and sometimes mix real life in with it. Whenever i am struggling with something, I close my eyes and pretend to be some imaginary character I've made up. I'm trying to write a book and all my friends are great encouragement. I know one day I'll be insane, so I try and treasure my sanity though if fades from time to time. I feel like I annoy everyone all the time and I usually get ignored. I still try and talk though. I chew on pens but never pencils. I randomly burst into song and make references that only I get. I never can keep my shoes tied and always wear the same few pairs. I'm awful at matching clothes and don't care. And I am absolutely terrified of being left behind or forgotten. That's also my only fear. I don't worry about thins. I procrastinate. I pretend I don't care. I do. And the most important thing is, I love you all. You're my family and the only people I can talk to.

So there. You know everything about me.