Obsession ~ bts ff

s e v e n

It's been a month since Taehyung caught me and Jimin kissing in the bathroom. SInce then he acts weirdly. Sure, he normally speaks to me and we do our little things together like our play night and stuff, but every time Jimin comes over, which happens a lot the past few days, he seems distant towards him, acts like he wouldn't be there. And then there is this empty gaze every time he looks at his best friend. Every time Jimin isn't paying attention, he looks at him and the darkness in his eyes getting even darker. Maybe I just star etting paranoid, but I am afraid that taehyung acutally isn't THAT happy about Jimin dating me. But I don't care. Jimin makes me happy. And as long as I make him happy as well, everything is fine. Taehyung should accept the fact, that I can't always be his little innocent sister, listening to her big old brother the whole time. He should get his own life together. He messed up so many exams the last weeks, that I am somehow worried about him. Taehyung actually is a pretty good student. Seeing him failing is not how he used to be. He studies the whole night to et his straiht A's, working  on projects to make himself the best student in his grade. Jimin told me all of this. And he is worried as well. But I also know that he somehow terrified by the way Taehyung acts. Because his isn't normal. 

,,What are we going to do today, Tae? I have heard a new game called 'Phasmophobia' came out. Should we try it?'', I ask Taehyung as I walk in his room. He is packing some things in a ba, which catches my attention. I stop walking and stand right in the middle of the room, watching every little step of my brother.

,,What are you doing?'', I ask him confused. He looks at me for a second before devoting attention on his actions. 

,,I will sleep at Jungkook's place. Since I messed up my exam, I have to study even harder. And he will help me'', he answers. I raise an eyebrow.

,,Why don't you ask Jimin for help? I thought he would be one of the best in your rade as well?''.

,,I thought you want to spend time with him today as well, like the past days before'', he says, closing his bag after finishing packing. He grabs his bag and walks out of the room. 

,,No, he is doing something with his family today. And we aren't barely tha long dating each other, that he wants me to present his family'', I tell, following him out of his room. He walks towards the front door, before he stands still. He turns around and looks at me.

,,Then enjoy your free time. Do whatever you want. This is something you are already doing right?'', he asks, raising an eyebrow. 

,,What do you mean?''.

,,I mean, that you don't care about what I am telling you to do and what not. You don't respect my rules in this household and keep secrets from me. Your ONE and ONLY family member and brother'', he answers. My hands form into fists and a tear builds up in my eyes.

,,This isn't true. I care about what you are saying. But the rules you are making up are only benefical for you and not for me. You can go and to whatever you want. You can have fun. You are able to do everything while I have to sit here in this freaking apartment, waiting for you to come home while MY WHOLE LIFE passes by. I am STUCK here. I just want to be free Taehyung. And I am not free and happy with all of this'', I say, louder and louder, till I yell at him. He looks at me, speechless. I am sick and tired. Looking down to the ground again, hiding my tears.

,,Well, go to Jungkook. Do what the fuck you want''. Without further ado I make my way back to my room, shutting the door close. I have enough. This is enough. I love Taehyunfg with all my heart, but god, he makes me so angry. I can understand why he behaves and why he acts like that, but I AM OLD ENOUGH to decide what is the best for me right now. 

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,,I am so sorry for you'', Ji-eun says before she bites into her cake. I poke into my food, not even being hungry.

,,You don't have to be sorry. You didn't do anything wrong. It's just Taehyung being an annoying dumbass''.

,,He is your brother. Isn't it normal?''

,,The way he acts? No! He is overproductive'', I say annoyed.

,,Well, I would be honored if he would act up like that around me''. I look up, right into her face. 

,,I am somtimes terrified by the way you like my brother.'', I mumble, looking back at my food. She giggles. 

,,I would do everything to get the tiniest bit of attentin from him. He is just so hot'', she raves, looking dreamy. I just shake my head.

,,Julyn-ah! Don't look like that. You talk the same way about Jimin like I talk about Taehyung. Don't judge me'', she whines. I have to giggle.

,,That isn't true. Sure, I really like Jimin-''

,,You don't only like him'', Ji-eun interrupts. ,,You LOVE him''. I stare at my food. Is this already love? Is this the indescribable feeling, that surounds me? The tiklish feeling in my stomach, my pounding heart, my mind always drifting to him? I never felt this way before. Not so intense. 

,,Ahh, she is blushing'', Ji-eun laughs. ,,I knew it. Kim Julyn loves Park Jimin. In love with her brothers best friend. Sounding like a stupid love story''.

,,Shut up!'', I say laughing. ,,So, I have to go now. Jimin and I want to do something today. I have to get ready''. She nods, smiling at me. ,,Then go have fun''.

-

Leaving the cafe that Ji-eun and I met in, ready to head home as I see a familiar car driving next to me, from which Taehyung's head pops out. I stop and look at him. 

,,Get in the car'', he says softly. 

,,Hello no, I am still angry at you'', I say angrily. 

,,I know, and I want to apologize for how I acted. Please, get in the car'', he pouts. Ah, I hate it. I hate him. He does this everytime he wants something so bad. He did it years ago with Mom and Dad, now with me. And it looks to fucking adorable. I look at the time on my phone. There is a little time left before I meet up with Jimin. 

,,Alright, But hurry up. Jimin and I are having a date later'', I mumble, opening the door of the car and enter it. 

,,Where are we going?'', I ask him as soon as I close the door of the car, putting on the seatbelt.

,,Far away from here''.