Obsession ~ bts ff

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„Thanks for showing me your favorite place", I thank him as he stops his car a bit further away from mine and Taehyung's apartment. Jimin smiles at me as he turns to me.

„Thank you for coming with me. And I am really sorry with your foot", he says, pouting a bit. Damn, this looks so cute.

„You kind of look like a puppy when you do so", I giggle, looking at my hands then.

Seeing his hand being laid down on mine, getting my attention. Looking up at him again, noticing his face being closer to mine. Again.

„And you kind of sound beautiful when you giggle like a little girl earning a kiss from her crush on her cheek", he says, his plump lips forming to a grin.

Maybe it was kind of laugh like he described. No. What the fuck. A crush on Park Jimin? Never. I just started to get to know him. What if he is really that dangerous like Taehyung told me? What if he isn't good enough for me? What if he is going to hurt me?

But my thoughts getting interrupted by his lips being laid on mine, kissing me gently. My heart starts beating faster, I stopped breathing for a second and my eyes slowly close to fully enjoy the feeling of his beautiful soft lips on mine.

Kissing him back, feeling his hand now laying on my cheek, caressing it with his thumb. Giving in into the kiss, leaning closer to him.

He kisses so good, it's like I am in a Trance. In a whole new world. In a world I have Never been before. Because it's my first kiss.

Leaning back to stop the kiss, biting my bottom lip. My cheek feel really hot, probably they are also red like a tomato, making me literally look like a little ten year old school girl.

„I wanted to that since the moment I saw you in your apartment and caught my attention. Unbelievable Taehyung his you for so long", he says, not stopping to caress my cheek.

My cheeks possibly got even more red and a smile appears on my lips before totally fading away by the thought of my brother.

„He just wanted to protect me. Like good big brother would do. I guess. And I actually be a good sister and listen to him", I mumble, looking at my hands again that are laid down on my knees.

„What do you mean?", Jimin asks, slowly taking away his hand from my cheek. And I immediately miss his warm hand giving me the calm I searched for so long. Sure, being with Taehyung always gave me that feeling of being protected, being safe. Being happy.
But there is something that Jimin gives that I never got from Taehyung. Something different. Something still undefined.
But this doesn't change the fact that Taehyung is my brother. My everything. The only person that I can trust with my whole life. This is something Jimin can't give me.

„Maybe we shouldn't see each other", I mumble. „Maybe it's better the way it has been before. I shouldn't break Taehyung trust. He means so much to me and I don't want to break his heart".

„Did you have fun tonight?", he asks me instead, searching for my eyes. Looking up at him to look into yours, straddled by his sudden question.

„Yes", I answer honestly.

„Were you happy?".

„Of course".

„And how did you feel?".

I take a deep breath. I exactly know the answer to this question. But I am afraid of speaking it out loud. It's like I just started betraying my own brother by saying this.

„Free", I mumble. „I felt free".

Jimin nods, also taking a deep breath. „And do you have the same feeling while being with Taeyhung? You can't tell me that you feel like a bird in a Cage. Taehyung might take care of you. But he can't control your life. He can't control whom you meat or not. He can't control you", he says, looking me deep in the eyes.

Yes, he is right. Taehyung can't decide all those things. I am my own person. Sure, I am thankful for everything my brother did to me. But I can't always hide myself from the outer world. At first I thought he is ashamed of me being his sister and that he rather be alone than having me by his side. But I also know that he would be upset being alone, especially after loosing our parents. This was a rough time. Being alone would have made this situation even more worse.

„I have to go now", I mumble, opening the door of the car, ready to leave.

„Hey, Julyn wait!", he says, taking my hand and preventing me to go. „I throw a party in two weeks since my parents are gone by then. It would be nice if you would come over". A party? I have never been at a party before. This time not because Taehyung didn't let me to, but because I am just not a party type.

I like it to sit on my bed, watching Vampire Diaries all over again, falling in love with Damon and wishing that someone so dark but also so passionate would fall in love with me. Someone I feel safe with.

But maybe it's time to go out of my little shell that I have built and try something new. I smile softly, nodding in response.

"I'd love to", I say, getting out of the car. Jimin still looks at me. "I will give you the other information soon, maybe tomorrow after school? At dinner?", he asks me, grinning like a small child. Did he just ask me out? Me? On a date? I try to hide my smile.

„Even though I would love to go to have dinner with you, it isn't possible. Taehyung and I have our game night together tomorrow", I mumble.
He sadly looks away, sighing. „Yeah, sure. Taehyung", he murmurs, sitting in his seat properly.

As soon as I see the gaze in his eyes I feel bad, taking a deep breath.

„But how about Sunday evening?", I ask him then, giving him a sweet smile. His eyes lighten up as soon as I said it, biting his bottom lip.

„That would be cool", he answers. Closing the car door after, waving at him as he starts driving away.
I guess I have date now.

„There you are! Where have you been?", Taehyung asks as I open the front door of our apartment, coming towards me. I roll my eyes. „I was with Ji-eun all the time. Calm down ok?",  I answer, making my way to my room.

„Are you really sure?", he asks, raising an eyebrow.
Turning around to face him, taking a deep breath. I hate it to lie to him, but what should I say instead? Oh, wait I just had a kind of date with your best friend and I kissed him in his car, sure everything's ok.

„Yeah, do you think I lie?". I ask him, curious about his answer. How much does my big brother trust me? This is something I asked myself for a very long time. I trust Taehyung with my whole heart, my life. And he knows it. But I never knew how much he trusts me.

„Of course I trust you. I just worried about you", he murmurs, looking at his fingers. His left middle finger has a special ring on it, which belonged to our dad. Taehyung and him had a strong bond, probably stronger then mine and Taehyung's now. Taehyung looked up to him, adored him, praised him. He even wanted to be like our father. That's what I have always been jealous of. I wanted the same love Taehyung got from our dad, but the only thing I got from was strictness. Now I know where Taehyung got it from.

In conclusion this ring means everything to him. If anything happens to that ring he would freak out.
I should change the topic before he gets melancholic.

„Do you already know what we are going to play tomorrow?", I ask him, making my way to my room. Over all the things that happened, the kiss, Jimin asking me out, Taehyung's worried eyes, all of that made me forget about the pain in my ankle.

As soon as I enter my room I feel it again, hiss a bit.

„How about monopoly?", he yells back in respond. Sitting down on my bed, pulling up my pants a bit and taking off my shoe and my socks, taking a look at the maybe broken foot.

It's somehow swollen, starting to get purple. Maybe I should go to a doctor.

Hearing Taehyung's respond, starting to grin a bit. „So you want to lose again?", I shout, giggling.

Hiding my purple ankle as I hear Taehyung's steps coming closer. He stands still on my door swell, looking at me from there. „I think I just want a revenge for all the years I have lost".

I laugh, throwing my head back. Yes, I love my brother.