HIDDEN (unedited)

CHAPTER 20

Chapter 20: bonding.

- Eren Dusk - P.O.V

I just put our third in command on the floor when I heard my mom calling for me. I growl.

when I go to her she takes me to one of the living rooms in the house.

"first I'm proud of you"

"oh you finally got how hard I worked on my last prank?!" I ask not knowing where the 'proud of you' come from.

I think it wasn't the prank, she started to look like someone forced hot chilly down her throat "you burned my garden!"

"it was an accident. how would I know he would react like that?" maybe it wasn't the best idea to remind her of that.

"and I'm accidentally grounding you!"

"that doesn't make sense! and I'm 19 you can't do that"

"fine since you're so grown up i won't ground you" seriously? yay! "but as your Luna I have the right to force you to be responsible for Adrian's meals" me and my big mouth!

" oh, I said I'm 19 but that is still so young and I'm okay with being grounded"

"you know the fact that you don't want to take care of Adrian's meals makes me want to force you to do it more"

"yeah" you see my dad might be the big bad Alfa but my mom is the biggest evil Alfa! sometimes just by giving my father the look she could make him scared enough to do what she wanted. I don't have the look yet but I am as evil as she is and would totally do what she is doing. knowing how stubborn she is I just wave her goodbye before living.

"and if I found him starved to death you are going to have a bad time" she yell at my living form.

she never got to tell me what was the proud thing about.

I finished my training and went to the kitchen with Liam to have a snack and ask about Adrian's meals schedule.

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for the past few days I had a routine I woke up and prepare myself then go to the kitchen and take Adrian's meal to take to him then go for my own breakfast. after that I would go to university when I get back it's Adrian's lunch time then my training with Lime and the others take place. I spend the night either working on my projects or talking to Jack on the phone. video chat. or just texting. after that of course dinner for Adrian. ( I hang out with Violet too)

in these days Adrian and I never spoke. even if I greet him all he does is nodding and it started to make me angry!

like what the heck man! you being her is not my fault!

today is my date with jack and I'm excited about that and nothing will change that. I go to Adrian's cell to give him his lunch and tell him someone else will be giving his dinner since I'll be own my dinner.

"Hello" I greet and he nods.

"sooo, tonight's dinner someone else will bring it to you" he doesn't even look at me! that damn mutt!

don't say that about our my mate!

I was about to have a mental argument with my wolf when he said "why do you even bring my meals? Aren't you a little high for that?"

oh oh oh the mutt!

does he intend to embrace me?

there is nobody around you idiot!

oh don't get my wolf wrong we have prisoners but we have 3 prisons. the first prison is like a normal human prison and we put in it people who with human crimes. the other two are in the pack house. one is for light punishment like you disrespecting your Alfa and that is were Adrian is. not many disrespect the Alfa. and the last one is were we put the real wearwolf bad criminals.

anyway back to Adrian. "what does that even mean" I spat the words every word increases my anger.

"nothing. sorry" he says picking his food and place it on the bed.

he looks at me finally. and I can't help but feel happy but that soon turns to worry. he looked sad it hurts. his eyes so hollow yet it looks like there is so much pain and I thought hurting for a person I don't even know but when he said it. he said those words I felt like crying and I don't know why.

"after I get out of here. I'll accept it"

he didn't need to tell me what it ment I know and I don't feel as happy as I thought I would.

"w... why the... change of heart?" I thought I could trust my voice but it failed me.

" I'm not good enough. I know that. I have always known that. I was always reminded of that. but I met someone a few years ago. he said that... that everyone in this world is important and I have to work to prove to people around me that I am. I have to fight for what's... what's mine" his eyes were locked with mine. I saw nothing else I heard nothing else and when he said mine my heart skipped a few beats I'm surprised I'm still alive. " I never believed him but he died and I thought to myself that by believing his word I might honor his memory" his voice was broken and it was covered with pain " but I know now how much of a fool I am and I will stop thinking that there is something for me. because there is nothing. and I should stop fighting for nothing as you are not mine as my life isn't mine" I was frozen and his face was emotionless.

what do I say to him? can I even say anything? What does 'my life isn't mine' mean? his gaze was on the floor now. and I'm still standing not knowing what to do.

I can't tell him he is important when I'm refusing him for not being important that would look like I'm pitying him.

I finally say " even if it is for a short while. I'm glad that me and my wolf were mated to a good guy. you're a good guy you just need to believe in yourself " thank god my voice was steady. I wait for him to say something but he doesn't even lift his head up. so I leave.

I walk to my room and take a quick hot shower and not until I start to sob that I notice the tears running down my face.