HEARTLESS

Everything Is Dying Slowly Around Me

Lilliths POV:

After having painfully walked all the way back to the school and sitting awkwardly and anxiously in the office with Gauge, I waited on the front steps outside of the school for Jasper.

I had called her to pick me up, she was the only person I could think of who might actually come get me. Although we had basically just met last weekend and hadn't talked much since that party it seemed like I could really trust her.

My stomach pain had eased and I was playing with the lace on my dress to calm my nerves, 'today was a total shit show' I thought to myself 'im embarrassing'

It was only second or third period by now, Jasper has to drive from her town to mine just to come get me. Guilt trickled into my mind at that thought.

'Maybe I should just lie and tell her my mum picked me up' i think about it but realize she's already on her way.

'God im a deadweight. I cant even go a day without those flashbacks or without needing saving.'

Too caught up in my mind I don't realize the familiar car that drives up to the school.

"Hey Lillith, sorry I took so long" the chill voice of Jasper spoke to me.

"oh hi! Its fine, sorry you had to pick me up anyways." I tell her as I take a seat in her car.

Jasper shakes her head "its really no big deal, its nice to see Rosegrove High again." She laughed.

"Oh yeah, you used to go here didnt you?"

"Yup, this place sucks ass."

I couldn't agree more, and as we drove away I realized that I was still wearing Gauges jacket that he gave me when we walked back to the school.

'Shit, he's gonna hate me for this.' I worry.

The jacket was grey, soft on the inside but rough on the out. Smelling strongly of cigarette smoke and his cologne, and it felt oddly comforting somehow.

'Wait, what am I thinking, taking comfort in that assholes jacket?' Im about to take it off but I hesitate 'Why the fuck do I hesitate?'

In conflict with myself I finally take the jacket off and stuff it into my backpack pushing away the odd personal situation with it.

Trying to relax my mind I listen to the music Jasper had playing. It was sad but it sorta fit with the way the day had gone so far. Surprisingly sitting in the car with just the music wasn't awkward, even though we hardly knew each other.

We had been driving for about 20 minutes when we stopped at a corner store out of town.

"I haven't had lunch yet, so I thought we'd stop and grab some snacks." Jasper said smiling at me.

"Oh okay" I responded getting out of the car.

A bell rang as we walked through the door of the corner store, and a worker acknowledged us with a short "hello."

Shitty pop music was playing as Jasper and I made our way to the freezer in the back.

"I used to always come here before school," she laughed "I almost got a job here too."

"Why didn't you?" I ask her.

"My shifts would've had to be a night shift during the weekdays," she explained grabbing a drink from the freezer "school is already exhausting, but working a night shift after would be ridiculous."

"Yeah, that would be draining." I respond "how would you even have had time to get homework done?" I ask choosing a drink for myself.

"Exactly, I wouldn't have." Jasper said walking to a different isle.