Paris In The Rain [h.s]

To My Flower

Hi, Flower.

Please don't hate me.

I don't think I can live the rest of my life with the fact that you hate me looming over my head.

Because I could never hate you. Not even for a second. Not even if I tried.

I love you. I really do. My love for you exceeds anything I've ever felt before. I just wish I wasn't having to leave you because I love you so much.

That's why I'm doing this. I'm doing this because of my love for you. That, and the fact I've completely fucked up our relationship.

All of my stupid mistakes have led up to this. I've brought you nothing but sadness and heartbreak. You deserve so much better. You deserve the entire world... and I can't give you that. I can't give you that because I'm not a good person.

But I'm not writing this note for it to be a constant reminder of all the reasons I left you. I'm writing this for all of the reasons I wish I could've stayed with you.

Even though I'm better at expressing my feelings through paint and a canvas, I'll make do with pen and paper.

Aurora. I love you.

I love you. I love everything about you.

I love your eyes. I love your smile. I love your laugh. I love the way you always smell like flowers and honey. I love the way your hand fits perfectly in mine. I love the way your hands feel like pure ecstasy when they touch my skin. I love the way your lips have the power to kiss away every single bad thought in my mind and can heal anything wrong in my life. I love the fact you'll only get a tattoo for the fact that it's sentimental.

You're my Flower. My paradise I can go to when the world feels like it's becoming too much. My Sleeping Beauty. My muse. My light. My world. My home. My everything.

I never expected to fall in love this hard. I never thought it was possible.

The love I feel for you is the type of love I thought only existed in books or movies. Where they fall so desperately in love with each other and nothing else in the world seems to matter. Just that person and whether or not they're right there by your side.

But I've realized all of that shit happens in real life. I know because it happened to me with you.

You're the person I want to spend my every waking moment with. I want to wake up every single day knowing I'm going to see the love of my life lying right beside me. You're the one who keeps me sane.