The Countryside (Zianourry) (Book 1)

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I read Harry's post for the 20th time these past 4 days. I have never felt so depressed and so regretful ever in my life. I know what you may be thinking. 'Liam, what the fuck were you and the boys thinking?!' and that's the thing....we weren't thinking. We were just so stupid and so ignorant to even see the issue ahead of the time. Harry is the first girl that we have dated without a contract, and she is the first lady that we are with that isn't a beard. She was our baby girl and we just decided to betray her...

She gave it all to us, and we just decided to step on that with steel boots and just spit in her face. We came to the realization as to what we did once we saw her walk out of the door and right out of our lives. We just stood there for 5 minutes before it all hit us at once. We are still trying to reach out to her, but we would either get a 'leave me alone' text from her, or we would be left on read. The last text that she sent to me personally was 'You hurt me and you think that little text messages will fix what happened? Little texts won't solve the situation that we are in and it won't even convince me to forgive you. Not even in the slightest. Goodbye Liam.'

I cried that night. I know that it wouldn't matter as much since I was the one who cheated, not her. I just miss her is all. Well I know that missing her is not just it...I hate myself too. I can tell that the others are feeling the same way too. We have felt so much pain and I cannot explain to you as to how much time we have spent in order to get Harry back.

I already know what many of you are going to say. 'You don't deserve her' and 'You guys are huge pricks' we know...we hear those things a lot these days. We have kept ourselves in our own homes for a while and thee are rare times where we would post things in any of our socials. Yeah...the breakup did effect us in a big way. We were supposed to release new music when we split up, but due to the breakup, we held it off.

Now when we were acting funny towards Harry was when we were feeling the guilt and we knew that we were bound to get caught. However, we never really confessed about it because we knew that it would lead up to this. HOWEVER, after talking about it a little more...we did realize that Harry was not like every other women. If we told her what we did, then she would've felt broken and it would've definitely been a while before we gained her trust again, but she would forgive us.

She's more of a 'I would like to hear it from my lover than a rumor' type of women. Which definitely have us the hint that it wouldn't have ended so badly if we had just confessed it to her from the start. With that in my head, I walked outside. I pulled out my phone and I called up Harry's number. It rung, which meant that she knew that I was calling, but as I expected, she never picked up, bringing me to voicemail.

"Hello! This is Harry Edward Styles, and you have reached my voicemail! Sorry for not picking up, but I promise that if you leave your name, number, and the reason behind the call, then I will surely get back to you! All the love! Bye!"

I smiled at the sound of her quirky self and I sighed before I heard the beep.

"Hey...um...I know that you don't want to hear from me and I know that a single voicemail won't have you crawling back to us, and I hope that it won't. You deserve much more than that and I swear that we are going to give you what you rightfully deserve. I just wanted to talk, but I guess I can talk to myself.

God...we are such idiots...I know that we should've just told you before you read about it in the news articles and we were going to tell you. We just thought that you were going to do the same thing if we just told you about it. That whole week that you were away from us and with your animals was when we were going out with other women. We stopped once you came back to us and that was when we were acting funny towards you.

We just...you are the first women that we have dated with no form and I know that this sounds stupid and trust me...I'm feeling quite stupid just saying this. We just didn't know how to feel about the entire relationship. Like how are we supposed to have a proper girlfriend? How are we supposed to handle a girl. Because before you...we were so sure that we were gay, but of course god had to slap us with an angel. Which is you.