new beginnings

crimson

content warning-blood

When i woke up i sat up immediately and looked around to see hanji sleeping leaning on levis shoulder on some chairs by my bed that was still in the infirmary i relaxed seeing hanji and layed back down looking up the the ceiling with one of my eyes covered i put a hand on it and felt a bandage it hurt a lot when i barely touched it "what the hell happened to my eye?" I asked myself just barely under my breath.

"Hanji said it was in pretty bad shape when they stitched it up" levi commented on the remark I had made just moments earlier.

" wow i never knew not like i can't see anything" i said not wanting to talk to the pissy short stack.

"Tsk, you should know better," he said as he got up and left, leaving Hanji in a half dazed state of waking up from levi moving their head. Hanji looked up to me and immediately woke up

""Y/N! You're up, i'm so sorry i did that without asking but you weren't thinking clearly and your body was shaking "they started to ramble on.

"Hanji, it's fine," I said while sitting up leaning on my arms that were helping to push me up.

"Yeah um i had to put stitches in your eye,i haven't changed the bandages since then but probably should check on them" hanji spoke while getting up and grabbing some more bandages from the cupboard. I just watched and felt hanji touch my arm without thinking like before and I jumped to the side avoiding their touch.

"I'm sorry," that's all I heard from Hanji before I felt them take my bandages off which I was expecting. cold air to hit my fresh wound and it stung Hanji took my chin with their hand and tilted my head up to theirs.

" Still looking like there is going to be damage" they said before cleaning it with a damp cloth. I clenched my jaw and waited until they were done to set out a sigh. When hanji was done rewrapping my eye i looked away from them not wanting to accept that this was actually happening .

"The guy who did this, he's going to get sent out to the garrison. Or that's what Levi decided "they said trying to get me to talk or show interest in something, anything. I kept looking down to the ground, the white thin blankets covering me left me warm. I heard Hanji walk out without saying anything, did I scare them away by not wanting to talk? I asked myself before laying down again as my head started to hurt once again. I layed on my right side that wasn't in pain except for maybe a bruise but it wasn't as bad as my left.

I tried to sleep but my mind was racing and the pain was growing in my eye or what's left of it at least. I groaned as I started to get up leaning onto my hands for support as I sat up. I twisted myself, my legs were now hanging off the edge and I stayed there for a minute not wanting to really get up. After a little bit I got up and walked to the washroom leaning onto the door frame as I closed the door behind me. I went to the washroom and washed my hands in the sink glancing up to my face which was mainly covered in a bandage but also stained from the blood. I sighed not wanting to look back up. I turned and opened the door walking back to the bed I was previously ini almost fell but caught myself on the bed i was frustrated and tired i couldn't even bring myself to get up from where i was, i turned and sat on the floor in the dark i pulled my knees up to my chest and hid my head down.

About an hour passed, the room was slowly getting more and more dark as time went by. There was a knock at the door and it opened and Hanji came in with papers piled in their arms "hey..." they looked over and saw me on the ground. They put down the stack of papers on the table and rushed over " are you okay? What happened, are you hurt?" they talked so fast i could barely comprehend what they were saying.

I looked up to them and they helped me up, laying me down on the bed before sitting beside me. " Sorry for worrying you, I just fell and couldn't get up" hanji looked over your body " are you hurt?" they asked, visibly concerned. "No," I said, my uncovered eye barely being held open. They got up " well okay then, just be careful" they shot a smile at y/n and sat down in the chair they had previously slept in the night before.

I fell asleep soon after hanji had helped me back up, i woke up and looked over to see hanji still sitting there working on their paperwork that i guess they had to still go through. I tried getting up while I was in the middle of doing so before hanji got up and walked over to me " do you need anything? Can I help?" they asked me. I smiled weakly before shaking my head which made my head hurt more than before." it's fine, I promise, ''I said, patting hanjis shoulder and getting up to go to the washroom. I felt something dripping down my face while I was getting up. I raised my hand to my face and felt a liquid. I pulled my hand down and saw crimson red blood on my fingers. I opened the door covering the doorknob with blood "h-hanji" I called out to them before holding myself up on the doorframe. Hanji looked up to see me stained with my own blood resting on the wall. They pushed their work off their lap and ran over to me pulling my arm around them and helping me to the bed. I laid back swallowing a lump in my throat. I looked at Hanji clearly in distress but i couldn't feel a lot of it. They took off the blood soaked bandage and grabbed gauze that was next to them on the counter and applied pressure to my eye. I didn't take my gaze off of Hanji. They made me feel calm in this situation.

Hanji lifted the gauze off of my face slightly and switched it out with a clean one throwing the blood soaked one to the side. Hanji was clearly in shock and was visibly concerned " not so good s it" i more stated ten asked hanji. "Huh- oh no your fine" they said while looking back to grab some more gauze, they called someone in to go grab more supplies. ""Hanji don't lie, please " hanji looked to me and put their free hand on the side of my cheek, " your okay, your still here i won't let you go" 

hehe a cliff hanger but ill have the new chapter out soon i promise