Choni one-shots and short stories.

She's not ready to let go- part 2

trigger warning: self harm ⚠

Toni POV

After V finished stitching me up, we all just sat around chatting and watching TV . I liked it, it made me feel more normal again, and even better  Cheryl remained cuddled up on my lap. At one point I thought she had fallen asleep, but after a reassuring giggle I new she was still awake.

After a little while I could tell Cheryl wanted to go home. She kept wiggling around on my lap. So I stood up announced me and Cher were gonna go home, I asked V if she could grab the keys to Cheryl's car off the table, she did and then carefully slid them on my finger. I said goodbye to everyone and Cheryl waved but didn't show her face.

We eventually got to the car, and I realised we had run into a problem.
"Cheryl, baby you have to let go of me so I can drive us home and I promise as soon as we are home you can hold onto me for ever," I say. The I hear her muffled voice say
" do you promise you won't leave me,"
"Never again," I reply
The she gentility and reluctantly releases her arms from around my neck and drops her leg to the floor.

I look at Cheryl finally seeing her fully for the first time in almost a month
"Hi," I say smiling
"Hi," she says smiling back.
I get into the car and she gets into the passenger seat. We drive home in a relatively comfortable silence, and once I get out the car Cheryl walked up to me and grabbed my hand,
"Cheryl I promise I'm not going anywhere," I say giving her hand a squeeze.

"i know, but i still wanna be close to you, " she say solemnly. then she suddenly stops and i get pulled back as I'm still holding her hand. 

"Cher," i say looking at her. she has her head hanging down and her beautiful red hair had fallen in front of her face. "what's up, " i add whilst putting my hand on her jaw and lifting her head.

"i, i ju-st, really missed you," she tried her best to talk through the tears "I thought you weren't gonna come back to me, i thought I'd lost yo-u," she said beginning to break down.

"Hey, hey Cheryl i promise I'm never gonna leave you again. you are the most important part of my life, and the reason i will never give up, okay,"

she nods in response and we go into the house. Cheryl goes upstairs, to get ready for bed and i make us some tea. Once i finished brewing the tea, i carefully walked up into mine and Cheryl's room, trying not to spill the tea all over the carpet. 

i get into our room and she meets my at the door way, she has on my oversized AC/DC shirt that she loves to wear as a nighty. i hand her, her tea. 

"Careful it's still quite hot," i say handing it to her. after she takes it, i walk over to my side of the bed, and put down my tea on the night stand.

 Cheryl POV

i was getting comfortable in our bed, and reach over and grab my tea. i took a sip, but only a little one cause it was still quite hot. Then Toni gets into bed in her clothes.

"TT, you can't sleep in your cloths, don't you have any PJ in your dresser?"

"Oh, no Cher its fine, i quite chilly anyways," she say avoiding looking at me. 

"Toni, if your cold, i can turn up the thermostat or, you could cuddle me," 

"No, Cheryl it's fine," she says, turning around and sitting on the bed, facing the wall. 

But i know exactly what is going on. It's happened before. a few month after me and Toni started dating and she moved in, she refused to wear short sleeves, but i managed to get her to tell me the truth. It was because she was harming herself. She promised she stop, but i guessing whilst she has been away, it's gotten out of hand.

"Toni," i say, gentilly putting my hand on her thigh, whilst i sit myself down next to her. "If what i think is happening, is happening then just know, I'm not angry or upset. I'm just worried, "she lays her head on my shoulder, and i kiss the top of her head. 

"Toni," i say,

"yeah,"

"do you remember earlier, when you told me you had to tell me something when we got home,"

"Yeah,"

"was this it?"

she paused and wiped her eyes, and snuggled herself into my side. then nodded. 

"and what about the ones on your head, are they the same?" 

she nodded against my side again, so i just extend my arms, and hug her really tight.

"Can i see," i ask.

she sits up and looks into my eyes, "do you really want to," she askes, grabbing my hand.

"yes, if your comfortable showing me," i replied.

she slowly lifts up her shirt and then puts it on the floor. then she wakes over to our dresser, and grabbed a big shirt. Toni then walks back over to me and turns her arm around. i scan her arms up and down, then ask

"can i touch?" she nodded in response.  so i gentilly linger my finger over her arm, i trace one of the cuts lightly, and then kiss her arm all over which makes Toni giggle slightly. which in returned makes me smile.

I then kiss the top of her forehead, and then her lips. i get under the covers, and lift them up to invite Toni in.

"the little spoon really Cher,"

"Yes Toni, your the little spoon tonight,"

"Bu-"

"No, Toni topaz you are the little spoon,"

she gives in and snuggles up next to me.

"I love you Cher," she whispers, 

"I love you to TT,"