I am selfish, I do not belong here. Safely hidden behind Abnegation gray. I will never be as selfless as my brother, Caleb. He is the perfect image of what an Abnegation should be. Always putting everyone else's needs in front of his own. I do not know how he is able to do it. I can be selfless if I try but most of the time I am anything but selfless. Our parents are selfless but sometimes I don't think that my mom actually was Abnegation to begin with.
"Beatrice it is time for dinner." Mom calls
" Coming." I call back.
Dinner was very plain as usual. I kind of get tired of the same boring things every day. I take the alleyway behind the school every day, we have a boring dinner (plain) every day, we have dinner at the same time every day. We are not allowed to take pictures because that would be selfish. I get to look at myself in the mirror once a year that is when my mom cuts my hair. Sometimes I wonder if my parents spend more time in front of the mirror than we get to see ourselves in the mirror. The next day I realize that I do not belong in Abnegation.I have always looked up to the dauntless every year I would run along the train tracks just waiting for all of the dauntless to jump off of the train.
Today we have to go to Marcus Eaton's house because my dad has a meeting with him, since my dad is on the council. We walk over to Marcus's house. We walk into the front door and I immediately see Marcus's son Tobias . I feel bad for him because his mom passed away. I don't think that his dad treats him very well, he is always sad when I see him at school. I hope that I will be in the same faction as him when I am older because I secretly have a crush on him but I don't think that anyone else knows about it. He is actually really nice and he is extremely cute. Even though he is a year or two older than me I still like him.
After my dad's meeting was done and over with.
Marcus said, "Goodbye" to us and we started to walk home.
On the the way home I had just realized how sunny and bright outside. It was really nice out and I wish we could go outside and play or ride bikes or something but oh heavon forebid we do one thing for ourselves. To abnegation everything has to be perfect and have nothing that revolves around ourselves.I do not like it here in Abnegation because I do not fit in I am like the random Abnegation child that is not entirely selfless.
By the time we are at home I am convinced that I will not remain a Abnegation citizen for the rest of my life I would not be able to take it plus I hate it enough as it is.
